The Black Puzzle

The spotlight is bright and invasive.  It intrudes without invitation on the poor child who labors beneath its heat.  She wipes her brow in fatigue, conscious of the audience who watches her superhuman effort.  She is used to the pressure.  She is a child resigned to the task of putting together this difficult jigsaw puzzle amidst the glare of spectators.

The puzzle is not age appropriate.  It is far too advanced for her, for anyone in fact, but she does not know it.  She has toiled beneath it since birth.  The puzzle pieces are all black and when fitted together form no picture.  Only a square of black.  How senseless, yet this is her life’s work.  When she makes a little progress fitting together a few pieces, and begins to feel encouraged, more pieces are offered to her from her audience.  She accepts them, for she does not know she can refuse.  The pressure mounts as she is in touch with the pressure of finishing the job.  It seems futile.

She hears footsteps behind her.  Companionship on the stage?  Here’s a new concept.  She shades her left eye with her hand to cut through the glare of the light, and when she does, she sees God approach her circle.  He comes toward her slowly. “How are you doing with the puzzle”, He asks.  She shrugs in despair and her shoulders heave in defeat.

“Would you like to see the puzzle I have for you?” He inquires.

“You mean, I’m not doing your puzzle?” she asks in surprise.

“Oh, no…my child.” With that, He reaches down, picks up a handful of pieces, and says, “These pieces belong to someone else’s puzzle.  No wonder you’re having trouble.” And He places them outside the circle.

“And no wonder these are too difficult.  They belong to your friends.” On and on this process is repeated.  God continues to fill the cup of His hand with the black fragments and place them outside her world where they belong.  Soon the circle of light is clean of all traces of her demanding puzzle.

“Now,” God says with glee, as He rubs His hands in anticipation, “let me show you your puzzle.” The air is charged with promise, yet she feels a hint of reserve as she wonders if she has aptitude for this new assignment.  From behind His back, He produces three large, bright, yellow puzzle pieces.  With a twinkle in His eye, He hands them to her.  She is mildly insulted and starts to laugh, thinking this is surely a joke.

“But, this can’t be my puzzle”, she says.  “It’s too easy!”

“Yes, my yoke is easy and my burden is light,” He recites as slowly as if He just thought of the words.

“But,” she stammers incredulously, “I’ll be finished with this in no time.  A matter of a minute or two.  And then what will I do?”

God isn’t surprised in the least by her wonderment.  He relishes the moment, making each second count, savoring the experience of delivering simple, earth-shattering truths.  “Well,” He says, “then we’ll have time to be together and play.”

He watches her squint her eyes and try to process this new line of thought.  But something is getting in the way.  Something that rises up within her; an ugly revelation of truth that cannot be ignored.  It is the truth of her experience that demands airing.  “You’ve forgotten,” she says.  “I don’t know how to play!”

Her retort doesn’t surprise him, only saddens Him as He thinks of her times under the spotlight, day after day, laboring to do a task not fit for any human, much less his tender child.  “Hmm, don’t know how to play?” He rubs his chin in thought.  Then just as quickly He adds, “I know of a litter of gray, tiger kittens outside in the field.  Want to go see them?”

He waits for what He knows will be her reaction.  Fashioned in her, by His own hands, is a love and deep enjoyment of tabby cats.  Grey tigers, He knows, brings her deep pleasure.

Eyes light up.  Spotlight is forgotten.  The flash of yellow pieces can be seen as they are rapidly joined together deftly by her fingers.  Jumping to her feet with her hand extended, she can be heard calling to him excitedly, “Come on, let’s go!”

God laughs with deep pleasure.  The spotlight is empty now.  Hand in hand, the two leave all tasks and the pressure that accompanies them.  The One who clasps her hand tightly speaks a final thought, “Dear child, you’ll know you’re doing someone else’s puzzle when we don’t have time to be together and play.”

She knows she’ll spend the rest of her life sorting and discarding black puzzle pieces and trading them in for the joy of yellow ones.

A New Foundation

Dear Sister,

It’s taken me many years to discover some things about my rich spiritual history and birthright.  Until I embraced it as mine, my life’s ‘house’ was constructed with some destitute building materials. Because I had not seized the meaning of my spiritual adoption and understood the full ramifications of God’s radical love for me, I worked for His approval.  I labored too long in a travail that took its toll. It was self-abusive.  I’m learning about my Father’s level of grief over the ways I suffered needlessly.  I’m ashamed to admit it, but I’ve not known much about His grace. Living the ‘victorious Christian life’ meant “impeccable performance”.  Now, I know it means, “living life loved”.

The kindest thing my Father has done in recent years has been to give me the choice to cooperate with Him in the dismantling of my impressive looking, but diseased internal world. It’s been painful to examine it all in the disassembly.  I discovered what was missing.  I did not know that I could build my life on the Father’s foundation of love, security, and the joy of obedience. Instead, my life’s foundation was built on sheer grit, framed with impossible expectations, and nailed together with anger and loneliness.

He cheers us on as we grow in stature as His Daughters of Promise.  He delights to see us discover the truths He knows will bring freedom.  I see Him rubbing His hands in anticipation when it looks like we are about to discover another secret of His heart. I am moved by the thought of giving my Father joy as I discover all He has for me.  This journey of life-changing discovery is captured in the following story.  A girl in ashes is re-born, re-shaped and re-generated. She emerges with a confidence born of her newfound identity.  For each of us that embark on this journey with her, I say most assuredly, the best is ahead!

WHAT IT MEANS TO COME HOME

Dear Sister,

Now that I understand that I am a dearly loved child of Abba, it feels safe to be me.  I see myself through His eyes. I actually like me, the person He created.  Because of that, I can dream without worrying He might think my fantasies are too outrageous.  I can create with wild abandon and sense His delight.

As I allow Him to liberate the child inside, once shriveled and hiding because of life on earth, He is unveiling a breathtaking panorama of color.  My world is no longer beige.  I am alive to new appetites.  Truths that were once lifeless now empower a new way of living. Continue reading “WHAT IT MEANS TO COME HOME” →

Spiritual Versus Physical

SPIRITUAL VERSUS PHYSICAL

They answered him, “Abraham is our father.”  Jesus said to them, “If you were Abraham’s children, you would be doing the works Abraham did, but now you seek to kill me, a man who has told you the truth that I heard from God.  This is not what Abraham did.”  John 8:39-40

Jesus’ words were often misunderstood because the person who heard them thought He was speaking about the physical world, not the spiritual one.  The woman at the well thought the water Jesus referred to was the water at the bottom of the well.  Nicodemus thought that the new birth Jesus spoke of was about a physical re-birth through a woman’s womb.  Now, the Pharisees are suffering from lack of insight because they make the same mistake.  They refer to themselves as physical descendants of Abraham when Jesus is talking about spiritual relations.  Are they Abraham’s spiritual children, children of belief, faith, and obedience. Continue reading “Spiritual Versus Physical” →

What Is At Stake

WHAT IS AT STAKE

On the last day of the festival, the great day, while Jesus was standing there, he cried out, “Let anyone who is thirsty come to me, and let the one who believes in me drink.”  John 7:37-38

Part of the ceremony for the feasts of Tabernacles was for the Jews to bring water from the pool of Siloam and pour it in a silver basin near the altar where sacrifices were made.  On this last day of the festival, it was evident to Jesus that His people had poured out water, observed a ceremonial ritual that was loaded with meaning, yet they were unchanged on the inside.  In this context, he cried out, “Let anyone who is thirsty, come.  I will be living water to you.” Continue reading “What Is At Stake” →

A Litmus Test For Truth

A LITMUS TEST FOR TRUTH

“If anyone’s will is to do God’s will, he will know whether the teaching is from God or whether I am speaking on my own authority.”  John 7:17

Jesus’ words grated against the Pharisees for many reasons.  One was their unwillingness to obey what He said.  They set themselves up to be judges of His words, not understanding that only doing God’s will brings understanding to the commandments.  The British preacher F.W.Robertson said that “obedience is the organ of spiritual knowledge.” If any man or woman is willing to obey, they shall understand the truth behind the action.  There is no substitute for application. Continue reading “A Litmus Test For Truth” →

A Walking Contradiction

A WALKING CONTRADICTION

Did not Moses give you the law?  Yet none of you keeps the law.  Why are you looking for an opportunity to kill me?  John 7:19

The Pharisees had been criticizing Jesus for healing on the Sabbath and other issues as well.  They did not recognize Him as the Son of God and in their blindness, rose up to pass judgment.  They thought way too highly of themselves.  Jesus points out here that they are a contradiction.  He tells them that they love to quote Moses and the prophets and yet they don’t keep the law that Moses passed down to them. Continue reading “A Walking Contradiction” →

The Delivery Man

THE DELIVERY MAN

“My teaching is not mine but His who sent Me.  The one who speaks on his own authority seeks his own glory but the one who seeks the glory of the one who sent him is true.  In him there is no falsehood.”  John 7:16,18

Our son, Ryan, lives four hours away in another city.  If some friends of ours were going to travel through his home town and made the offer to stop and see him, Ron and I would be asking them to take him a bag of homemade goodies as well as deliver a message or two from home.  We would tell them what to say and trust that their delivery would be identical to the way they heard it from us.  They would not be visiting Ryan on their own authority, with their own message, but would come to him on behalf of us, his parents.  The message on their lips is our message even though they are the ones delivering it.   Continue reading “The Delivery Man” →

Jesus Feels Rejection

JESUS FEELS REJECTION

So Jesus said to the twelve, “Do you want to go away as well?”  Simon Peter answered him, “To whom shall we go?  You have the words of eternal life.”  John 6:67-68

This passage highlights Peter’s amazing confession of faith in the midst of vast unbelief.  This morning though, I wondered about what was going on inside of Jesus, not Peter.  Did he feel the rejection of the crowd?  Was he hurt that most everyone turned away?  Did He have to go to His Father in prayer for comfort?  Did he cry?  If this seems like a stretch, what kind of a person could enjoy the warm enthusiasm of a group, a group made up of acquaintances and friends, and then feel nothing when they decided to turn their backs on him?  No one I know.   Continue reading “Jesus Feels Rejection” →

Dreams of Eloquence

Eloquence is a style of speaking or writing that is pleasing to the senses to the one listening or reading the words.  It has no aim, no goal, but consists of just gratuitous words. Is eloquence good or bad?  It depends on who it serves.

A bad eloquence has entered the church and characterized the pulpit.  My husband and I, early in our marriage, sat under the teaching of someone who made it his aim to be clever with biblical concepts.  He wanted to be memorable.  He thrived on others feedback that praised his ‘unique twists and turns’ throughout the pages of God’s Word.  His sermons became all about him having an audience, not about being a mouthpiece for God’s glory.  Not surprisingly, there seemed to be little spiritual growth under his influence over the years he served.  But oh, he was popular!  People came to be entertained by his eloquence.  He grew to have a reputation for being a wordsmith. Continue reading “Dreams of Eloquence” →