Author: Christine Wyrtzen

The Lord said, “I will surely return to you about this time next year, and Sarah your wife shall have a son.” And Sarah was listening at the tent door behind him. Now Abraham and Sarah were old, advanced in years. The way of women had ceased to be with Sarah. So Sarah laughed to herself, saying, “After I am worn out, and my lord is old, shall I have pleasure?” 

Genesis 18:10-12

Sarah’s cycle of womanhood was long over.  Logic.  Science.  These proved that it was humanly impossible to bear a child in old age.  Sarah laughed at the thought of something so out of reach.  She knew the physical impossibility.

Miracles aren’t miracles without the ‘impossibility’ factor.  Is this not why faith is so difficult?  We are surrounded by circumstantial physical evidence that disproves feasibility.  If I have a history of not having seen God’s power move on my behalf, then I will always lean toward logic and move away from what seems ludicrous to hope for.

What might I ask God for today if all reserve was moved out of the way?  Where does it seem risky to trust God?  Where would others laugh in my face and state the evidence against faith-filled prayer?  That points precisely, perhaps, to what God would, and can, do.

“But you can’t ask God for that!” Satan whispers.  His taunts, like arrows, come at me in thoughts but also through the mouths of friends and family.  He is not above using faithless believers to parrot faithless words.  So few walk by faith and I should remember that the next time a brother or sister in Christ comes with their ‘prudent’ warnings.

God has placed me in hundreds of impossible situations throughout my life.  There were times I had to pray for a miracle or there would be some horrible consequence.  So for survival’s sake, I hung onto faith, stood in the Word, and prayed for a miracle.  I have seen so many that faith is becoming my default response rather than unbelief that points to hard physical data.

God defies the odds.  He cares nothing about physics, past evidence, and present obstacles.  He who spoke to the earth, a planet that was once dark and lifeless, to transform it into a stunning environment full of limitless possibilities, is the same God who can do anything miraculous in my world.

Lord, show me where I can exercise faith today.  For what can I trust You that would defy all odds?  I’ll go there.  Amen

I bless the LORD who gives me counsel; in the night also my heart instructs me. Psalm 16:7

I’m often asked privately about dreams. Many believers are embarrassed to admit that they have them. (Even though they feel many are significant.) At times, they suffer from a season of nightmares and don’t understand why. In the latter days, we know that dreams will increase. The prophet Joel predicted it and Peter, in one of his sermons to the crowd, reminded them of Joel’s words. And in the last days it shall be, God declares, that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh, and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams. Acts 2:17 

I have to remember that just because I am sleeping, God is not inactive. God advances His kingdom at night as He instructs His children through dreams and ‘soul-surgery.’ As I stay engaged in the Word and continue to be transformed and rewired by the power of it, I believe that much of that transformation happens at night. There have been times I went to sleep believing one way about a person or situation and woke up feeling exactly the opposite. God did something!

Many nights, I ask God to guard my sleep. I assure Him that my heart is open to receive whatever He might show me. I have a catalog of dreams from the last twenty years and I believe that, for me, there are three kinds.

1.) Meaningless dreams. If I can’t remember what I dreamt by the time I get dressed, I know to dismiss it. It was probably superfluous mind activity.

2.) Tormenting dreams.  Satan thrives on torment and fear. He will concoct dreams that cause me to wake up and feel worse than when I went to bed. I’m shaken, fearful, and wonder if what I dreamt is a precursor of something down the road that I need to dread. I’ve learned to pray immediately and ask God to wipe it from my memory and to cleanse me from any oppression that came with it. Satan knows how to customize dreams to target what I dread.

3.) God’s dreams. These are the ones that stay with me in vivid detail. When waking up, no matter what time it is, I make sure to write them out. My spirit feels on fire when they come. As I journal, I can’t get the words out fast enough. Oftentimes, they’re truth-telling dreams about something or someone. Other times, they give warnings regarding someone I love. I know I had the dream so that I would pray for that person. And the rest of the time, God’s dreams are instructive, confirming, encouraging, clarifying, comforting, and even detailed in showing me the next steps I am to take.

If I believe a dream was from God, what should I do? I always ask God for multiple confirmations of what I believe He showed me in my dream. I put the contents of my dreams through the grid of scripture. It must line up with God’s Word. My Father has been faithful to bring assurances that the dreams were true. And very creatively, I might add. He loves to speak and is the consummate Communicator.

I love it when You speak to me. I love the effect of you whether in Your Word or through a personalized dream. You guard my life with instruction. Amen

And Abimelech said to Abraham, “What did you see, that you did this thing, [turn over your wife to me]?” Abraham said, “I did it because I thought, ‘There is no fear of God at all in this place, and they will kill me because of my wife.’  Genesis 20:10-11

         Sometimes, by all appearances, I am completely hemmed in. The only way of escape that I can see is to make a choice I would never otherwise make. It is against my conscience. Yet, my rationale overrules and I cave to engage in something unwise and even sinful.

         Abraham was in a tough spot. He had traveled into heathen territory and now He feared for the lives of his family. He assumed that the king would act in an unconscionable way by killing him in order to secure Sarah and all their wealth. It’s not that Abraham failed to be realistic about people. It’s that he assumed the worst about God. He believed God was not strong enough to keep His promises. As it turned out, Abimelech had a strong conscience and once he discovered that Sarah was Abraham’s wife, he trembled in fear over the sin he almost committed.

         What Abraham also did, and I never saw this before, was throw temptation before Abimelech. He provided the perfect opportunity for infidelity.  My bad choices always affect others.

         So many things can happen that make it appear that my world has fallen apart. I can be hemmed in by disease, finances, others bad choices, the mistakes of my past, and there appears to be no perfect way of escape. There just is no righteous door in sight. To cope, I manufacture a solution that is anything but perfect. I have to wince as I move ahead. If I could hear God speak, He would say, “Why didn’t you trust me? I’m never out of options and I would have led you through a door you couldn’t even see?”

         I have learned two things the hard way. 1.)When there is no righteous solution, I have learned not to move. Wait on God.   2.) When the righteous solution appears to have a bad outcome, I obey God anyway and know that He will order my steps into spacious places.

You are my hiding place.  You are my mountain mover.  You are the one who changes the hearts of those who have the power to harm me.  I vow to trust You and not myself.

WHEN I JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS

We wanted to come to you – I, Paul, more than once – and yet Satan thwarted us.  I Thess. 2:18

What I think are God’s plans for me and God’s actual plan are often far apart.  If I automatically assume that all my goals are His goals, just because they appear to be noble, then I will be confused when my way gets thwarted.  Is it Satan who prevents me from moving forward or is it God hemming me in order to move me in a different direction? Continue reading “Jumping To Conclusions” →

WHEN THE GLITTER IS REMOVED

I have seen a limit to all perfection, but your commandment is exceedingly broad.  Psalm 119:96

            Matthew Henry lists David’s disillusionments.  He saw Goliath, the strongest man around, overcome by a small stone.  He saw his nephew, Asahel, one described as ‘swift as a gazelle’, killed on the battlefield.  He saw his fairest son, Absalom, deform in character and turn on him.  He watched the seeming perfection of everyone around him take on their true limits.  Their glitter was removed.  The only thing that grew taller and wider with time was the Word of God. It was a painful thing to have that which beguiled me take on its true form.  The disillusionment unraveled my world.

           Recently, I taught at The Cove in Asheville, NC.  I talked with a woman whose daughter was dating someone who was not good for her.  Yet, her daughter was absolutely taken with him.  “What can I do,” she lamented.  I suggested that she pray and ask that his true colors be exposed, that the glitter that her daughter sees be removed by a God who wants her daughter to know truth.

            Jesus is to be my treasure.  Any other person or thing that my heart covets in place of Him has had a bona fide paint job by the enemy.  Satan allures me to the counterfeits, making each one seem as if it will fill my soul where it aches.  It’s a mirage.  Though it may seem for a time that it’s the thing I was looking for all along, eventually its glitter is removed.  The downward spiral into the mire of disappointment can cripple me permanently if I don’t turn to the only One who expands with time.

            The more I attempt to see the glory of Jesus, the more glory there is to discover.  The more I attempt to understand a stunning Bible truth, the larger and more expansive it becomes.  The things of the kingdom are broad, never disappointing the true seeker.

I’ve known so many disappointments and, for a while, they crippled me.  It took me a while to find you as my treasure.  Now that I have, my joy of discovering your limitless love and power only abounds.  Thank you for drawing me to you, the source of all pleasure.  Amen

THE LURE OF HOPELESSNESS

Now Sarai, Abram’s wife, had borne him no children. She had a female Egyptian servant whose name was Hagar. And Sarai said to Abram, “Behold now, the Lord has prevented me from bearing children. Go in to my servant; it may be that I shall obtain children by her.” And Abram listened to the voice of Sarai.  Genesis 16:2

         See what hopelessness has produced once it was verbalized?  Abram, who loved ‘hopeless Sarai’, empathized, then shared her hopelessness, then embraced her dangerous suggestion.  The thing that’s missing from all of this is prayer.  Sarai didn’t take her plight to God.  Abram, who listening to her crying, didn’t offer to make a sacrifice, build an altar, and get on his face with his wife.  They engineered a human solution and oh, how the world has suffered since.

         Unbelief, which leads to hopelessness, is a cancer.  It metastasizes like wildfire because the natural tendency of human beings is to rebel and wander in unbelief.  It goes against every natural grain in my being to have faith.  That’s why I must fight for it!  What little I have, I must guard with my life.  I must surround myself with others who are also fighting for faith because when I am my weakest and most vulnerable, they can pray for me and whisper God’s promises in my ear.

         There is a cross for every child of God to bear.  Though I can think someone else’s life looks perfect, it isn’t.  They also cry in the night about that thing that breaks their heart.  Over the nearly 60 years of my life, I’ve had more than a few say they wish they could be me, and live my life, thinking it’s nearly perfect.  I have laughed out loud, believe me.  I think to myself, “Really, you want to be me? Do you really want the story that has gone with the calling?  I don’t think so.”  All of us speak out of ignorance.

         The cross God has given me is mine to carry, not abandon.  Yet, I can spend all my energy trying to figure out how to engineer a solution to it.  Instead, I should submit to God and ask for the daily grace to carry the cross well.  If Abram and Sarai’s cross had been permanent barrenness; God would have carried them on the wings of faith.  The irony is, He promised them a miracle.  Deliverance was coming.  But in the difficult waiting period, they chose to walk in unbelief.  Hagar and Abram’s union would be a disaster.

           If you are about to enact a human solution to that which seems too crushing to bear, stop!  Either ask God to show you what to do and wait for Him to move or let us be like the Apostle Paul.  Though he asked for the thorn in the flesh to be removed, God did not do it.  Paul submitted, and through his weakness, He experienced the strength God gives.  So much so ~ that it became the focal point of His stories.  All His boasting was in the keeping power of Christ.

What will I do if some of my prayers are not answered the way I want?  I vow to be faithful, rely on Your grace, and speak well of you.  Amen

And they shall come back here in the fourth generation, for the iniquity of the Amorites is not yet complete.”  Genesis 15:16

If I had to pick one thing that has caused me to stumble over God, it would involve the question of why he waits so long to judge evil.  Those who are suffering at the hands of others cry out to God for deliverance.  The pain is unbearable.  The damage seems irreparable.  The thought of it having no end seems unthinkable.  God will do something, right?  I mean, God loves and promises to protect His people.

It’s difficult to explain God’s reasons thoroughly.  Who can know the mind of God?  But, some hints comfort me. This verse points at something weighty to consider.

The 400 years of Jewish slavery in Egypt are foretold to Abram.  God reveals that He will not bring them out of slavery until the iniquity of the Amorites is complete.  Amorites are the ones who possess Canaan, the Promised Land.  Their heinous sins will grow slowly through six generations.  There will be a limit to what God allows.  When their iniquity reaches the heights of notoriety, God will strike.

A couple of things I can conclude.  1. God does allow some evil to run a long course, and that decision can hurt His people.  2. He waits to judge because His heart is merciful and doesn’t want anyone to perish.  He gives all of us innumerable chances to hear His call and respond with repentance.  3. He allows evil to become blatant so that when He strikes, the message is clear about the consequences of sin.  4. With judgment, God’s power, justice, holiness, and glory are on full display.

As I reflect on my own life, I only understand a little of why God withheld justice for so long in hindsight.  I learned about the nature of evil.  The longer I suffered, the more wisdom became mine.  When I was released to live again, and abundantly, I could see that freedom came right on time.  It was a knowing in my spirit.  Many of my questions still remained, though.  But the real test was whether, in the middle of pain and unanswered questions, I could still say that God is good and does all things well. I had to say this by faith, with no visible evidence, and through many tears.

When you and I don’t understand, we can know that He does and has good reasons for how He chooses to rule.  In the end, heaven will reveal that God loved every one of us perfectly.

I pray right now for everyone who is suffering under the hand of evil.  Increase their faith.  Restore their trust.  Resurrect their cries for deliverance.  Oh Lord, judge the wicked and come to the aid of Your people.  Amen

ABRAM, GOD, ME & THE COVENANT

And he said to him, “I am the Lord who brought you out from Ur of the Chaldeans to give you this land to possess.” But he said, “O Lord God, how am I to know that I shall possess it?” He said to him, “Bring me a heifer three years old, a female goat three years old, a ram three years old, a turtledove, and a young pigeon.” And he brought him all these, cut them in half, and laid each half over against the other. But he did not cut the birds in half. And when birds of prey came down on the carcasses, Abram drove them away. As the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell on Abram.   Genesis 15:7-11

         God cut a covenant with Abram as a way to confirm the validity of all He had promised him. It was a blood offering, a blood oath. From that day on, there would be vows in place between God and Abram because of this ceremony. The ritual of cutting a covenant meant that each party was pledging all they were and all they owned to be forever available to the other person. Abram gave up all rights to himself and offered God the wealth of all he owned (exhibited by sacrificing the best of his flock for the covenant ceremony itself) as well as all rights to himself. He was no longer master of his own life but permanently put himself at God’s disposal.

            God did the same thing. He offered Abram all He was, all He owned; sharing the resources of heaven to lead, equip, and protect Abram. Who benefited most? Abram, for sure.

            A new covenant was cut at Calvary. Blood was shed again, except now it wasn’t the blood of animals, it was the blood of God’s own Son. When I embraced Jesus and came to God through the way of the cross, I took part in the covenant He offered just as tangibly as Abram and God enacted their ceremony. If I belong to Christ today, the covenant is firmly in place and this is what it means.

            Lord, I am completely yours. I give up all rights to myself and like Abram, I am listening for Your voice to lead me on my journey. All I am and all I have is Yours. I am at Your disposal for always.

            God’s response. And all I am is yours! All I have is yours. Continue reading “Abram, God, Me & the Covenant” →

OH, HOW I NEED A SIGN!

And he said to him, “I am the Lord who brought you out from Ur of the Chaldeans to give you this land to possess.” But he said, “O Lord God, how am I to know that I shall possess it?”  Genesis 15:7-8

         Because of Jesus’ harsh words in the Gospels about asking for a sign, I can wrongly conclude that asking for such a thing is displeasing to God.  But this story is just one passage in the Old Testament that proves God gladly gives signs.  The difference between an acceptable request and an unacceptable request is the kind of heart that asks.

         Abram had already believed God, so much so that God had declared him righteous.  The sign he asked for was a commemorative event that would forever serve to remind him that God’s promise would come true.

         An unacceptable request for a sign comes from unbelief.  You’ve heard people say such things.  “When God comes down here Himself to tell me, then I’ll believe it!”  With such statements, there is no humility, no trace of true searching.  The undertone smacks of blasphemy.

          If signs were evil, then why would God give Jesus as a sign?  Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign. Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a son, and shall call his name Immanuel.  Is.7:14   When His people, in the context of relationship, looked longingly for salvation, God gave the best sign of all.  His only Son!

         Perhaps God has spoken to you about your future.  You know that God does not lie.  You know that God is a covenant keeping God.  You have been standing in faith, watching for the fulfillment of what He has promised.  But let’s face it, there are discouraging days.  We have an enemy who assaults us on all sides and undermines God’s character.  Our hearts can faint even though at the core of our spirit, we still believe.  We cry out to God for a sign, for a commemorative event that will strengthen our weakened hearts. God knows the deep weariness that plagues His people in the midst of their obedience.  He is the one who sent angels to minister to Jesus in the wilderness when He was depleted and weary.   He is the Father who rewards faith with signs and answered prayers.

You see where I’m fainting.  I hold on to you, in faith.  Would you give me a sign that will strengthen me for the long road ahead?  Amen