Author: Christine Wyrtzen

AM I TOO OLD?

When Abram was ninety-nine years old the Lord appeared to Abram and said to him, “I am God Almighty;walk before me, and be blameless, that I may make my covenant between me and you, and may multiply you greatly.” Genesis 17:1-2

         Is anyone too old to come to Jesus?  We know the right answer.  “No, anyone, at any age, can trust Christ.”  Yet, we can despair over the elderly parent close to us.  They seem too far gone in their ability to see truth and trust a Savior.  They have a history of sin and scripture says that sin upon sin brings deception.  Their eyes are blinded by a lifetime of iniquity.  Yet, new birth happens with prayer, warfare, scripture and a loving and gentle perseverance.

         Is anyone too old for God to do a new thing?  Again, we know the right answer.  “God can call someone at 80 and his greatest achievement for the kingdom can be ahead of him.”  Yet, we can despair over ourselves when, at mid-life, we feel we have blown it.  The prime years of life are behind us and we believe we are too far gone for God to offer a pristine beginning.  We call our life to this point ~ ‘wasted years’.

         I consider Abram.  He was ninety-nine when the Lord appeared and reiterated the blessing and covenant.  God is about to change his name ~ a cataclysmic spiritual event that always precedes spiritual greatness.  He is anything but washed up.  Though, if we were to talk with Abram, he would need days, not hours, to tell us stories of his life.  Yes, he had taken great steps of faith but also matched them with great steps of failure.  He had betrayed his wife, taken a handmaiden to produce an heir, and made a mess of family relationships.  If anyone could have felt disqualified, it was Abram.

         Are you thinking of a senior adult as you read this?  I am.  A woman in her nineties.  Three marriages.  Two daughters who hate her; one physically assaulted her recently.  She’s seen it all over the course of her life.  Successful in business but jaded by the majority who have done anything for power, sex, and wealth.  She doesn’t know Jesus yet.  But recently, God has allowed her need of Him to surface and she’s open to the reality of prayer and God’s loving intervention.  This is a first.  Somehow, through a lifetime of experiences that would give anyone a hard heart, the love of Christ is breaking through to hers.  Soon, He will call her name.  She will hear and her greatest days may be ahead of her.  She’s got five more years before she’s as old as Abram when God spoke.  A God who is not impressed, nor restrained, by the limits of old age ~ stunned him.

No one is too old.  Not others.  Not me.  No one is too far gone.  Not others.  Not me.  In You, Jesus, all things are made new. Amen

HEAT DAMAGED

I have become like wineskin in the smoke, yet I have not forgotten your statutes.  Psalm 119:83

A wineskin is a ancient bottle made of leather.  If it got too near someone’s campfire for too long a period, it would dry out, crack, and become unusable. However, a little bit of exposure to the smoke would be a good thing because the wine would take on a distinctive smoky overtone. Continue reading “HEAT DAMAGED” →

WHAT CONSTITUTES AFFINITY?

I am a companion of all who fear you, of those who keep your precepts.  Psalm 119:63

    When the Spirit of God is mighty in a stranger, and I see His Spirit in them, I can honestly say that I love them.  Spirit recognizes Spirit and there is instant communion, even if unspoken.

    When two people are drawn together by their love for God and each is on a journey to love God above all others, the fellowship they share is of infinite value.  Over time, the love deepens and the spiritual bond defies explanation.  When two people are drawn together by reasons other than a common love for the Spirit and do not share a commitment to radical discipleship, a chasm will develop that neither can fix.  What one values is earthy things, the other values Christ.  That difference pulls them in opposite directions.  True and lasting affinity is only born of the Spirit.

    I have spent less than five hours with a Spirit-person and had deeper fellowship than with lifelong friends.  Continue reading “WHAT CONSTITUTES AFFINITY” →

REVIVING MY HOPE

So she called the name of the Lord who spoke to her, “You are a God of seeing,” for she said, “Truly here I have seen him who looks after me.”  Genesis 16:13

         Jesus revealed His true identity to the Samaritan woman at Jacob’s well.  God revealed His true identity to Hagar at a well in the middle of the wilderness somewhere on the way to Egypt.  The well was a stopping place, a resting place.  It was there that, in the lives of these two women, divine encounters occurred.  They were so powerful that it changed the courses of their lives.

         I read of their stories and I can long to be in their shoes for those few moments.  But wait!  I can be. Weary children of God can still stop by a well, dip their cup, and experience God.

         Who can’t relate to Hagar at some point in their life?  Maybe you’re there now.  Sinned against, singled out as the object of someone’s anger, you are fragile as an eggshell.  You can’t conceive of how you might go on and ever trust again.  You can feel your heart shriveling, closing off, and becoming cynical.  This abuse has happened so many times that it appears this is to be your way of life.  Why doesn’t God stop it?  Does He see you or are you a forgotten child?

         Run to the well.  Jesus is Living Water and the scriptures are the point of encounter.  Rest there.  Bring your aching heart and will it to hope once more in the God who sees.  El Roi.  Hagar named the Lord “The One who sees me.”  In the deafening silence of her wilderness, there was One who saw, One who spoke, One who made outrageous promises.

         God loves to be experienced.  He promises that, for any who search, He will be found.  Today, I make the scriptures my resting place and I won’t stop drinking until my thirst is quenched.  This has never been, nor will ever be, a futile endeavor.

You made the sands upon which I walk.  The earth is Yours and I am never alone.  Even when I see nothing but sand, You see nothing but me.  Amen

THE STORY OF INSIDE OUT

She has not acknowledged that I was the one who gave her the grain, the new wine and oil, who lavished on her the silver and gold— which they used for Baal. Hosea 2:8

Once upon a time, a man became a father. He held his newborn daughter close and breathed in the wonder of her. When she turned two, he threw her into the air and exclaimed in delight. Was any child more perfect? At night, while his child of promise slept, he dreamt of the all the things he could give her that would make her happy. His list was long. Continue reading “The Story Of Inside Out” →

WHEN GOD HONORS THE UNDERDOG

And the angel of the Lord said to her, “Behold, you are pregnant and shall bear a son. You shall call his name Ishmael, because the Lord has listened to your affliction. He shall be a wild donkey of a man, his hand against everyone and everyone’s hand against him, and he shall dwell over against all his kinsmen.” Genesis 16:11-12

           The power of God is on full display in the story of Hagar, just as it is in the story of Abram and Sarai.  This mother of Arab nations is often thought of as the subject of some side plot in Genesis.  Oh, but that is a mistake.  There are some astounding things to consider in God’s encounter with Hagar.

Every ancient people of Hagar’s world are no longer alive today.  They are all relegated to history books.  The only two who have survived, and who are thriving, are the descendants of Ishmael and the descendants of Isaac.  The point?  God is true to His promises.

Though God told Hagar to return to Abram and Sarai and, under difficult conditions, resume her role as their slave, her son Ishmael would grow to become independent of the clan of Abraham.  He would be the father and ruler of 12 princes, paralleling the 12 tribes who would descend from Isaac.

God had compassion on this Egyptian slave girl who had been a pawn between powerful men.  King Abimelech of Egypt had passed her off as a gift to Abram. As a slave, Sarai had passed her off to Abram to be used as a surrogate mother.  She was without power in a world where women and slaves had no rights.  When no one else had kind regard for her plight, God did.  God is a kind champion of women!

The promises of God, spoken through the Word of God, stand for all time.  There are things that He speaks today that will be true thousands of years from now.  I am learning that my heart is time bound.  I am consumed with the fulfilling of God’s promises for the immediate, not the long run.  That’s because pain is short sighted.  I want relief, resolution, and deliverance today.  What happens a thousand years from now is usually not as important to me as what will happen tomorrow.

Nevertheless, my heart takes notice that I belong to a God whose Word is powerful enough to transcend time.  There is nothing that can nullify what He has spoken.  No power will come against me to erase God’s plans.  However badly things may look for me on a given day in history, once God chooses to pour out His favor on the oppressed and forgotten, a blessed future commences and remains.  No threat, no arrow, no scheme, even perpetrated by the kings of this world, can undo what God has put in motion.

I’m living in Your timeless plot.  Though the hands of time move slowly and I don’t see the fulfillment of Your promises in these 24 hours, the future course of blessing is set on Your servant who obeys.  I will see my life through the eyes of faith today, Lord.  Amen

LOOKING FOR A WAY OUT

The angel of the Lord found her by a spring of water in the wilderness, the spring on the way to Shur. And he said, “Hagar, servant of Sarai, where have you come from and where are you going?” She said, “I am fleeing from my mistress Sarai.” The angel of the Lord said to her, “Return to your mistress and submit to her.”  Genesis 16:7-9

            There is Hagar, pregnant and alone in the middle of a wilderness. She had been mistreated by Sarai and unprotected by Abram.  In an intensely stressful situation, no one had handled it well.  Hagar reached her breaking point and decided she couldn’t take any more.  She ran away and headed toward Egypt, her home of origin.

            Now, God comes to her in her perceived isolation.  He notices her, addresses her with an audible voice, and gives her a life-defining moment.  The greatest choice lies in front of her and it’s presented when the stakes are the highest.  She can go home and ignore God’s command or she can obey Him, return to Sarai, and risk more mistreatment.

            Every one of us will experience a moment when we long to escape from somewhere.  We each have our limit.  Oppressive environments drive us to the edge of our ability to cope and we look for any way possible to flee those who mistreat us.  (And in the case of personal safety, fleeing is always the right thing to do!)  But outside of that, what if God asks us to stay?  What if bearing up well in the midst of harassment bears eternal rewards?  It’s possible.  God promises treasures in the darkness and, oh, how precious they are.  Wisdom, private tutoring, spiritual grit, keen discernment about good and evil.  These are but just a few.

            Do you want to flee a job where treatment is unfair?  Wanting out of a marriage that grew cold long ago?   Are you a caregiver to an aging parent, one that doesn’t appreciate your sacrifices?  Maybe you’re dreaming of relinquishing responsibility and sending them to a nursing home.  The question is whether or not you and I are willing to stay, or go, depending on God’s revealed will to us.  Sometimes, God tells us it’s time to uproot.  Other times He tells us to suffer well for another season of time.  We can do either ~ by God’s grace ~ when we know He is personally with us.

            What gave Hagar the emotional and spiritual fortitude to return to Abram and Sarai?  She had a personal encounter with God.  She learned that she was neither forgotten nor alone on her solitary journey.  God regarded her kindly, patiently, and with a desire to bless her.  Such favor made returning bearable.  She knew that she wouldn’t be alone, no matter what the outcome.  She heard God’s voice, felt His love, and could depend on every promise He made to her.  The God of Hagar is my God today.  No matter how desperate I am, He is right here offering an encounter that will fuel obedience.

Stay?  Go?  No matter what I want, I want what You want more.  Amen

ONE WHO FIGHTS; ONE WHO FLEES

And take not the word of truth utterly out of my mouth, for my hope is in your rules.  Psalm 119:43

The Psalmist fears that when any given situation arises, the wisdom of the kingdom, born of the Word and the Spirit, will be absent from his tongue.  The word of heaven is one of precision and strategy; a word that is characterized by either a gentle rain for a parched situation or a bolt of lightening that strikes in a firestorm.  It is clarifying, it is corrective, it is healing, and it always causes the kingdom to intersect with the world. Continue reading “Two Reactions” →

ABRAM, GOD, ME & THE COVENANT

And he said to him, “I am the Lord who brought you out from Ur of the Chaldeans to give you this land to possess.” But he said, “O Lord God, how am I to know that I shall possess it?” He said to him, “Bring me a heifer three years old, a female goat three years old, a ram three years old, a turtledove, and a young pigeon.” And he brought him all these, cut them in half, and laid each half over against the other. But he did not cut the birds in half. And when birds of prey came down on the carcasses, Abram drove them away. As the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell on Abram.   Genesis 15:7-11

         God cut a covenant with Abram as a way to confirm the validity of all He had promised him.  It was a blood offering, a blood oath.  From that day on, there would be vows in place between God and Abram because of this ceremony.  The ritual of cutting a covenant meant that each party was pledging all they were and all they owned to be forever available to the other person.  Abram gave up all rights to himself and offered God the wealth of all he owned (exhibited by sacrificing the best of his flock for the covenant ceremony itself) as well as all rights to himself.  He was no longer master of his own life but permanently put himself at God’s disposal.

            God did the same thing.  He offered Abram all He was, all He owned; sharing the resources of heaven to lead, equip, and protect Abram.  Who benefitted most?  Abram, for sure.

            A new covenant was cut at Calvary.  Blood was shed again, except now it wasn’t the blood of animals, it was the blood of God’s own Son.  When I embraced Jesus and came to God through the way of the cross, I took part in the covenant He offered just as tangibly as Abram and God enacted their ceremony.  If I belong to Christ today, the covenant is firmly in place and this is what it means.

            Lord, I am completely yours.  I give up all rights to myself and like Abram, I am listening for Your voice to lead me on my journey.  All I am and all I have is Yours.  I am at Your disposal for always.

            God’s response.   And all I am is yours!  All I have is yours.  The resources of heaven are at your disposal.  Like Abram, you are on a journey and there will be hardships but hold on, you will inherit the land.  You are an heir of everything I have given my Son.  Defer your hope to eternal things.  Because of our covenant, I have your back.  I will fill you, be intimate with you, protect and keep you, and totally provide for you. 

            Who benefits most from this covenant?  Me, for sure!  Yet, throughout my journey with God, I break the fidelity of our covenant exchange.  In ancient times, the penalty was death.  But God even took care of that.  Jesus died in my place for all the times I would be unfaithful.   Covenant love is not threatened by my poor performance or my failing heart.

            I can’t tell you how many times I have thought, “Oh, how costly is my salvation.  I must give up all rights to myself and to my life?”  That is tragically skewed.  Did I only consider my part in the covenant.  Apparently.  I forgot that God’s promises of Himself and everything He owns trumps the offer of my puny life.

 

I can’t believe You’d give me, eternal God, all You are and all You have.  Forgive me for counting the cost and thinking the price is too high.  I am the beneficiary of everything eternal.  Amen

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COVENANT MAKER

Twila Paris

Covenant maker, I made a start
Covenant breaker, I broke Your heart
Your word is deeper; Faithful and true
Covenant keeper, make me like You

Covenant maker, You made a way
Infinite taker, I made You pay
But Your love was deeper; Faithful and true
Covenant keeper, make me like You

THE COST OF SELF-MADE SOLUTIONS

And when the princes of Pharaoh saw her, they praised her to Pharaoh. And the woman was taken into Pharaoh’s house. And for her sake he dealt well with Abram; and he had sheep, oxen, male donkeys, male servants, female servants, female donkeys, and camels.  Genesis 12:15-16

         Abram panicked.  Afraid that a powerful Pharaoh would kill him and Sarai, he decided how he would save them instead of trusting God to do it.  If he told the Pharaoh that the lovely Sarai was his wife, the Pharaoh would kill him to acquire her.  If he said that Sarai was his sister, the Pharaoh would, most likely, take her but spare him.  What he didn’t even consider was that God might have a solution that would spare them both and their marriage.

         Is this not what afflicts faith-less children of God?  If I can’t conceive the answer, I assume it doesn’t exist.  Abram really believed there were only two options.  It will take failure and humiliation for Abram to see how powerful his God is.

         A self-made solution may bring immediate relief but it always comes with a price.  Because my ingenuity appears to have worked, this reinforces the lie that I must take care of myself.  When the next crisis comes, I won’t think twice about stepping in to play ‘god’ again.  I’m not aware until later that I’ve stepped outside of the miracle realm where God created me to live.  His design is for me to live wide-eyed and wonder-filled.  I was created to be a thrill-seeker and this is fulfilled in Christ as I journey by faith.  As I, daily, acknowledge my own powerlessness, I look up to see what God will do.  I’m always stunned!

         What did Abram lose by problem solving without God?  He lost his wife.  He lost respect with the Pharaoh.  God will be gracious, true to His promise, to save them but at this point, Abram doesn’t know that.  For the price of his life, he went to bed alone that night.  His so-called victory was hollow in the face of the loss of Sarai.

         Self-made solutions are always temporary and, sooner or later, yield bitter tears.

I will not take matters today into my own hands.  I know the payoff will only feel good temporarily.  I want the long-term payoff of seeing You work Your miracle.  Amen