ONE WHO FIGHTS; ONE WHO FLEES
And take not the word of truth utterly out of my mouth, for my hope is in your rules. Psalm 119:43
The Psalmist fears that when any given situation arises, the wisdom of the kingdom, born of the Word and the Spirit, will be absent from his tongue. The word of heaven is one of precision and strategy; a word that is characterized by either a gentle rain for a parched situation or a bolt of lightening that strikes in a firestorm. It is clarifying, it is corrective, it is healing, and it always causes the kingdom to intersect with the world.
Just because one is talkative and witty doesn’t mean that God’s Word is on their tongue. Just because one is on the quiet side and speaks thoughtfully doesn’t mean their speech is heaven sent either. Both are derived from the bent of the natural man.
Take two children, put them in the same home, and when adults fail them, both children can respond differently. One is perceptive enough to realize that the failure is outside of himself. He turns into a fighter. Words will be plentiful and will become his sword. He will spend a lifetime trying to right injustice and set the world right. He argues well and is used to winning verbal skirmishes. The other child internalizes the pain and believes the problem is within himself. He was failed by the adults because he deserved it somehow. This child loses words and turns the sword on himself. He grows up to withhold his insights. People, even family, fail to know what he really thinks because, though he has many thoughts and observations, he rarely speaks them.
Only God can heal the angry adult child. Only God can heal the self-condemning, fearful adult child. Without God’s intervention, the first adult will continue to have words, but they will be words born of his anger. And, without God’s intervention, the second adult will keep his mouth shut when words are necessary.
To have God’s words on my tongue – words of strategic kingdom importance – I must abandon all personal agendas whether I am one with a need for personal justice or I am the one with a need for validation. I must abdicate my right to fight or to be silent. My mouth is God’s mouth – ready to speak HIS word, HIS wisdom, on HIS timetable.
So, what makes a spokesman and an ambassador of heaven? One who has been taken to the wilderness at some point in his life to understand how he has learned to adapt to the pain in his life. God gives him the self-awareness to know if he is one who fights or one who flees. Either way, healing is needed. Either way, words must be re-born of the Spirit.
How am I to use my mouth today? When I would normally speak, is God asking me to be silent instead? When I would normally retreat in fear of speaking, is God asking me to open my mouth? The life of the true disciple is to weigh such matters, search the heart of God, and yield every member of his body, including his tongue, to the yoke of Jesus.
As one who loses words, I ask You to fill my mouth with Yours. Amen