Our fathers trusted in, leaned on, and confidently relied on You, and were not ashamed or confounded or disappointed. Psalm 22:5
Lord, let long forgotten vows make their way to my lips. Let me declare what I have not spoken for a long time. Let the deadly routine of what has become comfortable be shaken. Just as you make me holy, make this relationship holy. I am a lover, not a frozen companion. I am a receiver, not a resistant abstainer.
There is no breech that You cannot mend. There is no unspeakable topic that You cannot facilitate. There is no fear that You cannot annihilate. I lay out my heart before You. Though I tremble, nothing is off limits to Your probing of my heart. Bring to mind every single place that needs grace. I will tread upon that which I’d rather forget because Your love makes me strong.
If I declare my love and affectionate words are not returned, I forgive in advance. If my heart courageously opens and another heart remains closed, I know that You hold my heart in Your hands. If I broach a difficult subject and there is no closure, I know that You will reward my obedience. I will give grace where it is not deserved and I will ask for grace where it is not merited. No matter the outcome, Your grace is enough. I feel like a small child as I confront my fear but I am tall, graceful, fluent, and agile in Your kingdom. Imprint this picture on my soul.
I want to finish well. Marriage is a picture of Your love for Your church. You rejoice when my marriage looks like the marriage You envisioned in the Garden. Bless my endeavors. How it needs the wind of Your Spirit. I can see every way this undertaking might fail but help me see that if I do my part, my obedience will be credited as righteousness. In Your eyes, there will have been spiritual success.
Lord, if You come today, I won’t want anything to exist that I regret. I take hold of the hem of Your garment, Your tallit, and ask for an infusion of Your strength. No ground is more intimidating than this but ~ You, Lord, are the strength of my life. Of whom shall I be afraid? Psalm 27:1 In Your name I pray these things, Amen