Because Your lovingkindness is better than life, my lips will praise Thee. Psalm 63:3
Mollie, our beautiful golden retriever rescue, has now lived with us for three years. She was two when we got her. Perhaps you remember the story. When we brought her home on that first day, we turned to her and said, “You just had your last bad day!”
Getting to know Mollie’s quirks has taken some time. For two years, Mollie was neglected and shoved in a back yard. She had no shelter from the weather. Heat, cold, rain, thunder, lightening – she was their captive. How do we see signs of that reality play out now? When Mollie goes to the door and wants to go out, we’ll get up to open it. But then Mollie runs away. When you call her to come back, she runs further down the hall. It took us a good eighteen months to understand why she’s so conflicted. Though she wants to go out, she’s afraid we’ll trap her outside. We’ve tried a bunch of things but here’s what finally worked. We open the door, stroke her, then turn our back to her so she feels no pressure from us. With the choice truly being hers, she will walk outside.
Quirks can be a nuisance without love. Think of what happens while we wait for Mollie to decide. In a Georgia summer, the heat pours in the house. In the winter, the heat escapes. All because our dog needs time to make up her mind.
Each of us have a story. We come to God with triggers. Some are afraid of silence; others, of noise. Some have a fear of crowds; others, a fear of being alone. These are the less complicated ones. The comforting thing is that God knows me intimately. He knows how to scale the wall with just the right gesture so that I’ll lose my shyness and trust Him. He’s not stumped by my quirks nor do they put Him off. Patiently, He works with me. Cajoling and encouraging, He offers Himself as a companion.
Ever feel like you’re forever imprisoned by your past? Like you’re making no progress? God has the key to steps forward. Go to the open door.
Some of my objections to You spanned decades. Oh Lord, You never stopped reaching out to me. Your lovingkindness is better than life. Amen