Look to the right and see: there is none who takes notice of me; no refuge remains to me; no one cares for my soul. I cry to you, O LORD; I say, “You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living. Psalm 142:4-5
If I do something wrong and disappoint someone close to me, perhaps I can make it up to them. The cost may be personally expensive but maybe I can erase the disappointment and create a better memory within the relationship. But what of the times I am a disappointment? When the cause does not lie within me but within their expectations of me? Can I possibly heal from such unfair rejection and resulting pressure? Perhaps ~
- I am the wrong gender. My parents wanted a boy.
- My parents didn’t want children. I exist – therefore I disappoint.
- I have the wrong gifts. I’m in one profession but my parents wanted me to pursue another.
- I am too emotional. My parents are rational and don’t understand me.
- I am an obstacle. My birth stood in the way of a parent’s career.
I reason that if the people I’ve always looked up to reject me, then I must be the problem, right? When I am the object of someone’s disappointment, it’s crippling until Jesus offers me a way of escape. The only cure is to be the object of God’s desire. He says, “I want you. I love you. Be mine. I accept you and celebrate you. You are unique and have a purpose in my kingdom that no one else can fulfill.”
That heals the wounds of disappointment. Consider this C.S. Lewis quote. “If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world.” On this day, ask God to show you in some way that you are the object of His deep desire. No one is left out – not on any day. Beautiful love declarations in scripture are yours today to bask in.
You create out of wisdom, purity, and holiness. Whatever Your hand fashions, You call ‘good’. I am Your creation. If You didn’t want me, You wouldn’t have made me. I declare today that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, loved by You. Amen