PRAYER TO REFORM MY IDENTITY
Thus says the Lord, “Let not a wise man boast of his wisdom, and let not the mighty man boast of his might, let not a rich man boast of his riches; but let him who boasts boast of this, that he understands and knows Me, that I am the Lord who exercises lovingkindess, justice, and righteousness on earth; for I delight in these things,” declares the Lord. Jeremiah 9:23-24
‘Boast’ (Halal) ~ to shine, to flash forth light
Lord, You say that You feel delight when I boast about knowing You and think little of this world in comparison. I want to be that taken with You, to feel deeply when I think about belonging to You. Oh, find delight in what I am confessing.
Forgive me for considering myself wise, for feeling pretty good about how much scripture I know. Anything I’ve grasped, You have revealed to me. In Your mercy, You gave me spiritual sight. I was ignorant and blind on my own.
Forgive me for believing I am somehow significant because others turn to me for help and guidance. You have brought them to my door to find Your Spirit – resident in me. Even that I can not take credit for.
Forgive me for enjoying the praise of others for external things that will pass away; for the warmth of my home, decorating, outward appearance and style of clothing. I have often acted as if these define me but I will have none of them when I stand before You. I will only be defined by whether or not we are Father and daughter.
Forgive me for feeling proud of my accomplishments and wanting others to notice them. Deliver me of my need to be vindicated from past rejections. Break me from my addiction to the praise of others. You are not impressed with anything but the pursuit of You.
Help me absorb the meaning of Jeremiah’s words. When I erase my maiden name, when I erase my married name, when I come before You as simply a daughter whom You created, it is only about You and me. To be able to say that I know You is a sensation that will last for all eternity.
Let my awe increase so that foolish appetites decrease. In Jesus’ name, Amen