EVEN WHEN I CANNOT SEE HIM
Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land. For I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” Then Jacob awoke from his sleep and said, “Surely the Lord is in this place, and I did not know it.” Genesis 28:15-16
Jacob had a dream and, in it, the Lord spoke to him and confirmed that the covenant promise He had made with his father and grandfather was his as well. How merciful in light of what Jacob and his mother had just done to deceive and trick his father.
Jacob wakes up and his response is something I have said repeatedly about the past. “Now I see that God was there and I didn’t even know it!” The time I’m usually referring to is when I suffered and felt completely abandoned by God. The terror of being alone caused such despair. Oftentimes, it turned to anger.
It’s comforting and life changing to realize that God was there all along. Hindsight and God-given intuition prove it with time. Accusations made against Him come back to haunt me. I see that I was faithless and unfair. I end up apologizing to my Father because I can finally see how His Spirit preserved me. I also see how He redeemed a painful experience into something beautiful.
If you are in a crushing place and it appears that God is not around, it’s not true. Proclaim Jacob’s words out loud. “Surely the Lord is in this place though I do not know it.” If these trials seem to you to be wasted and senseless, it’s not true. You are simply in the middle of the plotline. Redemption has not happened yet. Every pain is for the purpose of redemption. Every single one. It’s a tragedy when we let the pain define us and live as though it’s the end of the story. God is eagerly rubbing His hands together, just waiting for us to seek His healing and redemption. It’s not just something He hands out without it being a cooperative effort.
Wherever this devotional finds you today, two things are true. 1.) God is with you. And, 2.) God’s promises for a redemptive future are still in tact.
I am often blind to Your presence but I do not possess blind faith. I choose to trust even when I can’t see You. Amen
Journal Question: Over what memory do you still say, “Where were you, God? Did you really leave me alone?” Are you willing to change your belief about that event? How about declaring, by faith, that God was with you. Then ask Him to open your eyes to see evidence of His presence.