Daughters of Promise


But whoever has doubts is condemned if he eats, because the eating is not from faith.  For whatever does not proceed from faith is sin.  Romans 14:23

         Timidity, something that has plagued me for much of my life, is to live unsure of who you are and what you’re called to do.  While those two areas are comprehensive, what’s even more crippling is to live with everyday uncertainties.  Am I going to the right church?  Am I serving in the right capacities in my church?  And for some, have I married the right person?  Have I taken the right job?  Every decision, big and small, is made without faith that it is the right decision.  I am not a person of kingdom influence because I’m always hiding in the shadows, timid and unsure of myself.  Ultimately, this is a spiritual problem.  A strong father/child relationship with God is what gives anyone confidence and purpose.

         I consider the times I begin a conversation with “I’ve been thinking a while about saying something to ______________ about ____________.”  It’s dangerous to go forward with a potentially serious conversation on shaky ground.

         Or, “I’ve been thinking about making a job change.”  “I’ve been thinking about starting a new venture.”  I have lived much of my life on the whims of human ideas without waiting for God to speak and confirm.

         It’s taken me over fifty years to realize that if I’m in doubt, don’t move!  If I’m in doubt, don’t speak!  God has promised to lead me and take me by the hand.  He is not a Father of confusion.  He is not unkind, withholding direction but then expecting me to move with self-doubt.  If I’m unsure about whether to move forward with an idea, I know I must spend more time in prayer.  I wait for the answer – confirmed by God’s still small voice, or a scripture He leads me to, and/or a word from someone else who knows nothing about my dilemma but speaks a confirming word out of the blue.  God is always trying to communicate with me, in more ways than I believe He can speak, but I’m not tuned in and listening.

         My experience is this ~ God is gracious to confirm things two, three, even four ways so that I can live by faith. I may have a strong kingdom idea but implementing it at the right time, at the right place, with the right people, takes prayer.  Timidity is erased in the prayer closet.

I don’t want the fallout of making the wrong decision.  I don’t want to start something prematurely.  I don’t want to say something I’ll regret.  I follow Your pillar of fire and Your whisper in the wind.  Amen

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