
No one wants to be an orphan. To some degree, we’ve all felt shades of the experience; what it’s like to be alone, unwanted, or invisible. What it’s like to have to figure things out on our own, to be void of needed resources, to have no one to turn to for help. These are all part of the orphan’s journey and are meant to be history the moment I come to God through faith in Christ. He becomes my new Father. My perfect Father. This Father is not passive, but engaged. This Father does not leave me alone to figure out who I am after this radical re-birth. He draws close, defines, reveals, and makes promises that feel too good to be true. I know many of them by heart and trust them by faith. You probably do, too.
But what our head knows and what our heart experiences can conflict. I can know that I am God’s much loved daughter. I can know that I’m invited to live in the joy of my new identity. But knowing it and feeling it can be far apart. That’s because history is powerful and my view of myself has been shaped by relationships and experiences on earth. None were perfect and most of them are as old as the number of birthdays I’ve celebrated. Let’s face it. Re-defining ourselves is a tall order. Yet we must realize that we’re not the ones doing the re-defining, the mental or emotional. God will do it if I’m all in and He possesses the power if I am open.
This series will explore the ten profile characteristics of a spiritual orphan ~ then the ten characteristics of a spiritual daughter. You will probably see yourself in the first ten and aspire to live in the reality of the next ten. You might ask ~ Where did these orphan profiles come from? Let me answer. They came from me. I knew them all and named them. They fit me like a second skin. Believe me, I’m intimately acquainted with what it’s like to be called a child of God but live as though I’m an orphan. I have many decades of experience.
Change is possible. The spiritual battle between what I feel and what God says is true need not be opposites. It is possible to know and feel what God knows and feels. I am to know I’m His beloved daughter but also feel like His beloved daughter. How is this possible? By the Word and by the Spirit. One without the other will not bring change. Both are needed. I will tell you that I was never shown this earlier in my life. It’s the key to inward congruency. To fully understand the power and implications of the Gospel, I must understand what really happened at my new birth and at the time of salvation. The catalysts for change then are the same catalysts which bring about changes in me now.
May God will give you new eyes to see, new ears to hear, and a new capacity for spiritual understanding. At stake is what identity you allow to shape the rest of your journey home. Beloved, now we are the sons [daughters] of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be . . . I John 3:2
This scriptural truth needs to be the banner over my life. No one gets to define my worth except my Creator. Not a parent, not a caregiver, not a teacher, not a pastor, not a child or spouse. Only God’s opinion matters because His Word trumps all others as my Creator. He says I’m cherished and that must be lived out by daily acts of faith.
If you read yesterday’s devotional, you remember my story about the red glasses I used to wear as a 4 year old. I threw them away because of ridicule and abandoned the way I was made for a decade or two. Today, I encourage you to consider what your ‘red glasses’ might represent. A dream you abandoned, perhaps, because you were told it was stupid. Each of us wants to be loved and to belong and will change who we are to get it. Our authentic self becomes an imposter, but a convincing one. Sometimes, we even fool ourselves into thinking we’re really comfortable in the wrong skin.
For the next four decades, I played it safe and painted my internal world beige so that I could blend in with my surroundings. Once in a while, in a weak moment, my free spirit would peek out but the risk of rejection was ever in front of me. I was my own policeman, squashing the impulses of the best parts of me. This ritual killing of myself almost destroyed me. Daughters of Promise was birthed in my own re-birth.
She came alive as Jesus talked. She rose to engage Him in animated conversation. Thirsty, she finally voiced a desire to what He was offering. “Give me this drink,” she said. But Jesus didn’t answer…. “I’m speaking of myself and this is how you drink of me.” He immediately brought up the subject of her husband which unearthed the most painful of any possible admissions she might have to make. She had been married five times and lived with a sixth man. I often wondered why Jesus’ strategy was to change the subject. Perhaps it was to put His finger on the most painful place in her life. By doing so, the message was this ~ If you want the most profound encounter possible with Me, you must drink of Me where you need Me the most. Because she didn’t shy away, she received new life.
The concepts of meditation and prayer are so much a part of our everyday Christian language that they risk becoming cliches. It’s hard to feel their great significance. We say, ‘Read the bible and pray’ like we might say, ‘Don’t forget to say please and thank you.’ The impact is lost unless we spend our lives practicing them.
Perhaps the iceberg that fatally wounded the Titanic in the Spring of 1912 looked much like this one. By the time Murdoch spotted it, there wasn’t enough time to turn sharply enough to avoid it. When they hit, a jagged piece of iceberg, under the water, ripped part of the hull.
Whose version of your story do you believe? There are so many from which to choose. 1.) People are quick to tell us about ourselves whether we ask them to or not. 2.) We have our own version of life’s events. 3.) Satan has a version and is all too eager to interpret life’s events for us. “This happened to you because God didn’t take care of you.” But most importantly, 4.) God has a version.