How Mature Am I?

Many of the people believed in Him.  They said, “When the Christ appears, will He do more signs than this man has done?”  John 7:31

Miracles can bring confusion.  If I am hungry and Jesus miraculously feeds me with a boy’s lunch, does that mean that I’ll never be hungry again?  If I am Mary or Martha and I’ve watched Jesus raise my brother, Lazarus, from the dead, does that mean that he will never be sick again?  That he won’t die a second time?  Many people came to Jesus because of the signs they saw Him perform.  They believed in Him and wanted to crown Him king.  Yet, they were not prepared to take up their cross and follow Him in the paths of discipleship.  When things got hard, they became disillusioned and abandoned Him.

My faith can be that shaky unless I know how to cultivate something deeper, a faith that can’t be shaken by false expectations.  tozer-bw-freedom-in-gods-presenceWhen I cry out in my need and see Jesus come through with a miracle so personal and powerful that I declare His glory from the rooftops, I can be lulled into entitlement.  I believe He will do that every time.  It never occurs to me that the next time, He might answer in a different way.  I forget that I am also called to suffer as He did in order to show a world, who also suffers, that God’s presence is the greater miracle.  His love and grace sustain no matter how many, or how few, signs and wonders I may see in my lifetime.  The real miracle is my new birth, my awaiting destiny, and a relationship with a God who knows my name and draws near to me no matter what.

If many of God’s children were honest today, they would admit to preferring a financial miracle to the presence of Christ.  Miracles can appear to have far greater value than the presence of One I can’t see, can’t touch, can’t look in the eye.  This is a childish preference.  However, that is how we all begin our walk with Jesus but we are to mature past that point.

God loves His children and has promised to meet all their needs.  Sometimes it will be in the form of physical bread.  Other times, it will be grace to endure hunger.  Peter, when crucified upside down for his faith, experienced a Savior who provided for him.  Though he didn’t deliver him from martyrdom, he provided Himself as a companion through the experience.  Paul, imprisoned many times for his faith, saw deliverance happen two ways.  One time, his jail cell sprung open.  The next, he was beaten savagely.  Would he say that one time Jesus came through, and the next, He didn’t?  Hardly.  Our spiritual father’s faith was built, not on signs and wonders, but on kingdom realities.  The were mature enough in their faith to know that ultimately, it’s not about what happens to us in this world.  It’s all about the next.  Until I get safely home, Jesus is with me.  That is the greatest miracle of all and one I can depend on.

I pray there will be nothing in my life to bring my faith to a crisis of belief.  Lord, it’s not about deliverance from pain every time.  It’s about grace through the pain. I walk behind You, trusting in Your Father as you did.  Amen

Jesus Changes The Subject

Jesus answered, “Very truly, I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God without being born from above.”  John 3:3

Nicodemus came for a private teaching instruction from Jesus.  Instead of getting what he anticipated, Jesus changed the topic entirely.  I can imagine Nicodemus was greatly confused.  He was one of the most brilliant of the Jewish religious leaders, schooled his entire life in the scriptures, yet Jesus spoke of things for which he had no knowledge or experience, something as elementary as being born into the kingdom.

What I perceive as my greatest spiritual need can be way off base.  Though I think I know myself, I never see myself as God sees me.  I think I need one thing; God would say that I need another.

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Some years ago, I was aware that I was losing the edge of my singing voice.  I prayed diligently for some years for God to heal it. He didn’t.  I was asking for one thing but God needed to address another, a subject related to my voice.  He was not concerned, necessarily, about my singing as He was about the strength of my voice in general.  My boldness was veiled under a layer of fear of perception.  God’s agenda was to take me on a journey of healing so that my voice, whether speaking or singing, was strengthened to say what I was born to say.  It was a seven year adventure.  Asking for one thing but God addressing another has certainly been my experience.

Perhaps you are there today.  Your frustration with God is high.  You might even assume that He’s not listening to you when you ask for what you think you need.  He most surely is.  He is the great Physician of the soul and though he cares about your desires, His passion is for your greatest good and that overrides your limited view of yourself.  Just as Nicodemus had to stretch beyond his expectations of this short visit with Jesus to go to an uncomfortable place of spiritual need, God’s children must do the same.

Jesus, I trust You to give me what I need.  Show me if what I’m praying for is stuck because my ears need to hear You about something else.  Amen

Heart Overflowing

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. Matthew 5:6

I contend that every person hungers after righteousness. Who doesn’t want things to be fair? Who doesn’t want a childhood where they are cherished and affirmed? Who doesn’t want loyal friends? Who doesn’t want injustice made right? Who doesn’t love to see something breathtakingly beautiful? Solomon said that God placed eternity in our hearts. Indeed. But the root of all righteousness is a holy God and I need to be made righteous with Him in order to love the righteousness that is in Him.

And is this not the stumbling block? To be made right with a righteous God, I need to align my beliefs with His. I must see my sinfulness and need for a Savior. This is the very point where mankind is offended, defensive, and turns his hunger and thirst elsewhere. We seek to fill the empty void with everything but God. It never works.

rushingwaterI think of many sumptuous spiritual meals I have consumed over the years. Many of the moments have been personal, probably most of them. But some have been corporate. A good number of them happened while standing in worship at Desiring God conferences in Minneapolis. The teaching had been superb and then we worshiped. When I remember those moments, I long for them again. Since Jesus promised that we would feel full after hungering after righteousness, I was very aware that I felt full at the end of the conference. To be full is to have had so much poured into your spirit that you don’t even know where to start to talk about it. Some of it could be put into words but much of it went to a place inside where God moves freely, and deeply, but where there is no definition to any part of it yet. You just know you were changed. The leaves of sanctification are swirling up into the air but haven’t landed yet to make a form.

I must do whatever it takes to stay in touch with my spiritual hunger. If I feel dull and don’t know why, I must ask God what’s wrong. Living spiritually full was God’s plan for His creation. I contend that He loves to reveal whatever would be standing in the way of my joy. I was created to enjoy God forever.

Fed by Your hand. It’s the abundant life and I can’t believe it took me so long to get it. Amen

Familiarity Should Not Presume

But in truth, I tell you, there were many widows in Israel in the days of Elijah, when the heavens were shut up three years and six months, and a great famine came over all the land, and Elijah was sent to none of them but only to Zarephath, in the land of Sidon, to a woman who was a widow. And there were many lepers in Israel in the time of the prophet Elisha, and none of them was cleansed, but only Naaman the Syrian.” Luke 4:25-27

The people of Nazareth wanted Jesus to work His miracles in Nazareth, not elsewhere to their exclusion. But Jesus tells them that prophets are not welcome in their own hometown. He gave them examples from stories they knew from history.

When Israel was experiencing famine, Elijah was not sent to Israel’s struggling widows. Instead, he was sent to Zarephath to a Gentile. Later, even though there were many lepers in Israel, Elisha, was sent to Naaman, also a Gentile. I wonder if Jesus’ hometown audience was aware that He was speaking prophetically as well. Jesus would not only be rejected by the people of Nazareth but by the nation of Israel at large. He is predicting that His Gospel message will also go to the Gentiles.

The Spirit of God goes where He is wanted. If not America, then China. If not my city of Athens, then another. If not my family, then the family next door. We might protest. “But we’re the ones that are sick and we need Him to come and heal us.” Can you hear the entitlement of the Nazarenes? The question begs to be asked. Is it the miracle they wanted or was it Jesus they really desired?

On the other side of healing, Jesus told many people to go and sin no more. What did sinning have to do with physical healing? Everything. To want Jesus is to embrace who He is and the salvation He came to offer. To only want healing is not becoming a disciple.

Lest Jesus’ actions and words offend us today, let’s stop and think a moment. When was the last time you felt used? Your value was in what you could do for someone rather than who you were. When did that knowledge come to you? Probably when you were tired, or busy, or felt led to direct your energies elsewhere. That’s when anger and entitlement usually surface and it isn’t pretty. But we are different than Jesus. We withdraw because we’re angry and hurt. Jesus went elsewhere in obedience to God.

I test my own love for Jesus today. If He gave me nothing but salvation and companionship until heaven, would I love Him just as much? What if He didn’t rescue, provide, heal, and do the myriad of things I often ask of Him, how would I respond? If I erased petitions from my prayers, would there be anything to talk about? I spend time with people I love all the time without asking them for a thing. My relationship with Jesus shouldn’t revolve around asking.

I love You for You. Amen

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The Difficulties of Ministry At Home

Jesus said to them, “Surely you will quote this proverb to me: ‘Physician, heal yourself!’ And you will tell me, ‘Do here in your hometown what we have heard that you did in Capernaum.’” “Truly I tell you,” he continued, “no prophet is accepted in his hometown. Luke 4:23-24

It’s hard for Nazareth folk to take Jesus seriously. Can you imagine their comments that precipitated Jesus’ response to them?

  • “Can you believe what we’re hearing about Jesus? We knew him all those years and he never did one miracle in Nazareth!”
  • “We knew he was special but claiming to be God? What’s gotten into him?”
  • “I’m curious. Let’s see if Jesus will come here so we can see if what he’s doing other places is legitimate.”
  • “Quite frankly, it’s a little much to believe the stories being told. I mean, he’s just Mary’s son.”

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To the curiosity seekers of Nazareth, he was an anomaly to be explored. To the unbelievers of Nazareth, he was someone to watch perform in order to discredit. Were there any true seekers? Perhaps, but they were the tiny minority. Why would Jesus indulge his hometown people when they merely wanted to see what he could do?

Hometowns don’t give their prophets much credence. They will forever regard them as the children they once were; as the student they taught in school, as the playmate they engaged on the playground, as the person they once dated, and even as the teenager who once rebelled. The stereotypes are cast in stone in hometown settings and rarely are people willing to see someone new.

As one who came out of a small town of 1200 people, and as one who grew up to gain some notoriety, I can attest first hand to some of the challenges. In my youth and immaturity, I wanted nothing more than to prove myself to family and friends. I could see early on that they weren’t bent to take me seriously and that made me work all the harder. At some point, I gave up and a period of bitterness set in. If only I had reviewed and understood this passage about Jesus and his own hometown. I’d have better understood the dynamics and let it go.

How the people of Nazareth missed out! Never had any villager loved them like Jesus loved them. In his childhood and adolescence, he forgave every sharp word spoken to him. He answered every angry tone with gentleness. He was a loyal friend to the underdog. And yet love was spurned when the truth of the Gospel and the Kingdom were preached. Convulsive reactions to the conviction of sin will always trump any warmth someone might feel when in the presence of Love. Human pride runs to the core of our DNA. Oh, what we miss when we refuse to stand in the presence of Jesus and see our sin and His holiness – then His great love and mercy.

Don’t let my familiarity with You blind me. Amen

What Did It Feel Like?

And he came to Nazareth, where he had been brought up. And as was his custom, he went to the synagogue on the Sabbath day, and he stood up to read. And the scroll of the prophet Isaiah was given to him. He unrolled the scroll and found the place where it was written, “The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim liberty to the captives and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.” Luke 4:18-19

Jesus had a history of astounding religious leaders with his grasp of the scriptures. He was the Jewish boy wonder of Nazareth and when he was twelve, he went to Jerusalem and amazed them there as well. Having a grasp of the scriptures earned him respect and awe as the gifted son of Joseph and Mary. But this day in Nazareth, just as his public ministry began, the Jewish world was shaken up. They thought they knew Jesus but to hear Him pronounce Himself as the fulfillment of Isaiah 61 was shocking. Did Jesus have to take a deep breath to make this announcement? Did He momentarily deal with fear? He probably knew that rejection and controversy would follow.

At what actual point did Jesus learn that He was the Messiah? Perhaps Mary told him as a child but maybe not. Did He know it as He astounded religious leaders in Jerusalem at twelve years of age? We’re not told but there was a good indication that He was self-aware of His identity at that point. He referred to the temple as ‘His Father’s house.’ My husband, Ron, believes He always knew it since He was filled with the Holy Spirit from conception. Perhaps.

Fast forward to Luke and today’s scripture. To announce His divinity to family and friends had to shake up every relationship He had except the one with his mother and Joseph. How did He feel about that day? As One divine, we know He was bold to declare the truth and didn’t think twice about following God’s lead. But as Incarnate, did He experience any emotions that we might feel when we announce something we know will be controversial? Did He sleep the night before? Was it agonizing to think about possibly losing friends and long standing relationships?  This would change everything. His brothers would be embarrassed by His claims and remain so until after the resurrection. Three years is a long time to feel the scorn of your siblings. Jesus was gone before his brother, James, called himself a bond slave of Christ.

We are called to do bold things. Jesus paved the way for us in showing us how to weather the extreme fickleness of people. Those who hate you one day can align with you the next. Those who claim to love you today can turn, oftentimes on a dime, over your strong Christian beliefs. No matter how comfortable our life is today, we follow a Savior who shakes up with world with the many implications of the Gospel. Many are warmed by our unwavering allegiance to Christ but many more are repelled. God gives us grace to walk the walk – whether with family or strangers.

You infuse me with the grace and courage to follow Your lead. Amen

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Careful! Satan Quotes Scripture!

And he took him to Jerusalem and set him on the pinnacle of the temple and said to him, “If you are the Son of God, throw yourself down from here, for it is written, “ ‘He will command his angels concerning you, to guard you,’ and “ ‘On their hands they will bear you up, lest you strike your foot against a stone.’ ” And Jesus answered him, “It is said, ‘You shall not put the Lord your God to the test.’” Luke 4:9-12

One of the first things I need to know about my enemy is that he will regroup. If he doesn’t succeed after several tries to corrupt my trust in God, he will keep at it by looking for a more effective way to persuade me.

Satan came at Jesus with pretty clever ideas in the first two temptations. Jesus stood firm. But in the third temptation, Satan went for the jugular by quoting scripture. Jesus saw through the ruse and stood firm again by re-framing the scripture Satan used with another scripture.

rippedbible2One can prove almost anything with a bible verse if it is isolated it from its context and from the total revelation of God’s Word. Cults are formed on partial, misrepresented scriptures. Picking and choosing verses at whim and calling them ‘words from God’ is not living by faith. That’s not to say that God doesn’t, out of the clear blue, give us a verse. He does. But if this comprises my way of life to form my spiritual compass, I need to be careful.

Jesus balanced Satan’s use of scripture with another scripture. He did this while standing on holy ground – at the highest pinnacle of the holy temple. Yes, Satan is not above treading into churches and small groups to mis-quote the Word. He’ll invade my devotional time; he’ll even invade my prayer life. By taking God’s Word out of context, he’ll try to convince me of sin when I’m really under God’s favor. He’ll convince me that I’m about to be disciplined when I’m on the verge of being blessed. He’ll remind me of some Old Testament story when God judged severely if my view of God is more harsh than loving. He loves imbalance!

I can’t afford not to know my Bible. The reason Jesus was so skilled in wielding scriptures was because He spent his first thirty years in disciplined study. There was no shortcut for Him (even though He had the advantage of knowing His Father) and there is no shortcut for me. How can I tell if what I’m hearing is God’s Word or a false word? I have to look at the end result.  Am I encouraged to compromise or stay faithful? Am I drawn toward God or away from God? Am I fearful or more trusting? Am I repelled or more worshipful? Satan’s agenda is always to create a breach in the relationship between God and His child. If I keep that in mind, I can usually perceive whether there’s a snake in the grass.

Your Spirit inside of me knows what’s up when Satan tries to plant a bad seed. Lord, cause his words to be instantly revolting to me. Amen

Power and Powerlessness

And the devil took him up and showed him all the kingdoms of the world in a moment of time, and said to him, “To you I will give all this authority and their glory, for it has been delivered to me, and I give it to whom I will. If you, then, will worship me, it will all be yours.” And Jesus answered him, “It is written, “ ‘You shall worship the Lord your God, and him only shall you serve.’ Luke 4:5-8

If I’m struck with a disease no one can cure, I feel powerless. If I’m trapped in a loveless marriage, I feel powerless. If I’m languishing under a mountain of debt and there is no way to repay it, I feel powerless.

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Powerlessness drives me to edge of utter despair. Feeling powerless is not a sin but what I choose to believe next determines whether faith will live or die.

Was Jesus struck with the temptation to feel powerless? I suspect the answer is yes when I consider that a wilderness is not something anyone can control. Jesus was powerless against a place with no water, no food, and no shelter. Powerlessness was another one of Satan’s attacks against Jesus. Just as Satan wanted Him to feed Himself prematurely by turning stones to bread, He also wanted Jesus to assume power and authority prematurely so there would be no need to go to the cross. But Jesus knew that suffering comes before glory.

Was He tempted to ease the pain of powerlessness by taking Satan’s bait? If He was tempted in every way that we are, I believe the answer is yes. But He understood that the avenue to this premature authority would mean satanic worship. Jesus, once again, saw through the lure, chose suffering, and quoted scripture to silence His tempter. He served the enemy legal papers by reminding him that there is only one God to worship.

Many never pray until they feel powerless. There is only One who is mighty to save when all else fails. Waiting for His salvation is the hard part. We never know if God’s saving hand will be immediate or deferred. We know that in some cases, our own glory also comes after suffering.

In whatever ways you are tempted to give up waiting on God today to go for some man-made, Satan-endorsed, remedy….stop. Your way of coping simply might be to stop hoping and to succumb to numbing despair. But those who hope in God will never be put to shame. Each of us could benefit by looking into the face of what traps us today to declare the following ~ “I am small and powerless but I rest in the hands of my powerful God. Never have I been safer. Never have I had a greater panorama of options.”

I don’t need to see. You look over the top of my cage and plan my victory. Amen

A Year With Jesus

 Now there are also many other things that Jesus did. Were every one of them to be written, I suppose that the world itself could not contain the books that would be written.  John 21:25
There is so much more to be learned about Jesus.  Let me be clear though.  The Bible is complete and no more can ever be added to it.  Yet, God is still the revealer of mysteries within the multi-dimensional layers of His Word.  There is much the Holy Spirit desires to unveil about Jesus.  There are spellbinding discoveries and the King of glory will be on full display.  In 2017, I will embark on a year of study and meditation on the life of Jesus.  Each day’s devotional will capture a moment in time.
dark-lettersWhat if there were a new book released entitled, ‘One Thousand New Discoveries on the Person of Jesus?’  It would be a worldwide best seller.  But for what reason would it fly off the shelves?  I’m convinced that many unbelievers would buy it for pure historic value.  Jesus is the most influential person ever to have lived.  But many believers would purchase it so that they could learn interesting tidbits to share at their next Bible Study.  Sadly, they comprise the disciples who thrive at being reporters.
The notoriety of Jesus made me think about famous people who suffer from loneliness.  They struggle to know whom they can trust.  Many so-called friends who seem genuinely interested in them end up betraying them.  These faux friends draw close, invade their privacy, and then boast to their own circle of friends about what they learned.  They feast on the failures of the famous person and the disclosures that were made in private make these traitors feel significant.  They just can’t wait to whisper these secrets to others.  For those in the limelight, it’s very difficult to discern the motives of all who profess love and loyalty.
Jesus was, and is, famous.  Oh, that all Bible Study would be for the purpose of loving Him more, not reporting for self-interest.  Jesus waits for true seekers who want to draw close.  He waits to participate in the journey of anyone who desires to know Him better.  He waits to open blind eyes to His glory.  He waits to unveil spiritual food where it’s least expected.  At the beginning of this New Year, He is fully engaged.  He’s waiting and eager to speak, confirm, nudge, convict, embrace, and breathe His very life into every life-changing discovery ahead of us.
Are you on the edge of Your seat, Jesus?  I am.  Amen

The Most Important Thing We’ll Do All Day

The Spirit of the Lord will rest on Him,

The spirit of wisdom and understanding,

The spirit of counsel and strength,

The spirit of knowledge and the fear of the Lord.

He will delight in the fear of the Lord

He will not judge by what His eyes see

Nor make a decision by what His ears hear;

Righteousness will be the belt about His loins,

And faithfulness the belt about His waist.

Isaiah 11:2-5

These verses from Isaiah are prophetic words about Jesus.  They describe Him beautifully and comprehensively.  As I read them, I understand that I am to bear His image.

In light of that, I customized a prayer for myself.  I experience it as more powerful when I pray it out loud.  I invite you to join me in the most important thing we’ll do all day.  I am in awe of the privilege we have to grow together – bearing the likeness of the One who began His earthly life in a stable.


Lord, I pray that Your Spirit will rest on me. Scripture says, “But Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit, looked up to heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God.” Acts 7:55  Father, I want to be like Stephen.  Full of the Spirit.  Able to discern spiritual realities.  Able to see Your glory in everything around me.

I pray that I will have the spirit of wisdom and understanding. Scripture says, “God gave Solomon wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding as measureless as the sand on the seashore.” I Kings 4:29 Lord, I pray that you will gift me with the same things.  I value wisdom and understanding above all things.

 I ask that you give me the spirit of counsel and strength. Scripture says, “I pray that You, the Father of glory, will give me a spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Christ Jesus.”  Ephesians 1:17 I acknowledge today that wisdom comes from You, not from me.  I am destitute without it and cry out with empty hands.

Give me the spirit of knowledge and the fear of You.  Scripture says, “Do not be terrified by them, for the LORD your God, who is among you, is a great and awesome God.” Deuteronomy 7:21  Lord, I do not need to fear any man or woman today.  No family member, no employer, no spouse, no friend.  You, God, are here and You live in me.  You are great and awesome and I can stand tall because I’m Yours.

I take delight in the fear of the Lord. Scripture says, “Then Hannah said, “My heart rejoices in the LORD and my horn is lifted high. My mouth boasts over my enemies, for I delight in your deliverance.”  I Samuel 2:1 Lord, Hannah cried out with this praise in the midst of deprivation.  I offer the same.  My soul may mourn, but my heart rejoices in who You are.  I delight in Your deliverance.

Don’t let me judge by what my eyes see. Scripture says, “The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”  I Samuel 16:7 I am to bear Your image, Lord.  Help me see others’ souls – for each man’s soul will live forever – and you ache for all to come to Your table.  Let me extend Your invitation without judgment.

Help me refrain from making decisions by what my ears hear. Scripture says, “Do not pervert justice or show partiality. Do not accept a bribe, for a bribe blinds the eyes of the wise and twists the words of the righteous.” Deuteronomy16:19 Father, when I show favoritism, I pervert Your justice.  Have mercy on me.  Keep my heart pure.

Let righteousness adorn me. Scripture says, “Abram believed the LORD, and he credited it to him as righteousness.” Genesis 15:6 This is the root of righteousness, Father.  I see that.  I am to believe You – believe You in the face of my own thoughts and opinions, believe Your promise of deliverance despite how hopeless things appear, believe You for Your provision of grace despite how overwhelmed I feel, believe that You will lead me on the right path though I am often void of direction.

Let faithfulness be as a belt around my waist. And finally Lord, Scripture says “You, the LORD, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, and abounding in love and faithfulness.”  Exodus 34:6″  You have promised to perform a supernatural work in me, to help me be like You.  May others say about me, “There’s _______________, compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in love and faithfulness.”  I do not want to mar Your image.  Empower me to obey as I stay close to You so that I can bear Your reflection.

I pray these things in Jesus’ name, Amen

Journal Question:  What one attribute of Jesus do you desire more of in 2017?  How can you make this your focus and spiritual endeavor?  Make a plan.