When I Can’t Explain It Yet

Jesus looked around and saw them following. ‘What do you want?’ he asked them. John 1:38 [NLT]

Two men were so drawn to Jesus after His baptism that they stopped everything and started following Him. Jesus, sensing them behind Him, asked them, “What do you want?”

There are moments when the Spirit stirs the heart before the mind can explain it. Something shifts. A hunger wakes up. The soul begins moving toward Jesus before it has language for why. I imagine that is what happened here. They were being drawn by Someone they did not yet understand, but could no longer ignore.

So they answered, “Where are you staying?” In other words, ‘we want more time with you.’ Jesus wasn’t put off. He told them to follow, that He would take them to where he was currently living. He was accessible then ~ and still is.

Christianity is the only faith that is intimate. Leaders of religious movements develop a leadership style that keeps their followers at a distance. The bigger the movement, the more out of reach they become. But Jesus remained accessible to the people. Yes, there were times He retreated to pray, to rest and restore, but His invitation never theatrical. “Come unto me, all you who are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

The King of Kings and Lord of Lords has numbered the hairs of my head, has kept every tear I’ve cried close to Him, and engraved my face, and my name, on the palms of His hands. His promises are not general kindnesses floating out of reach; they are personal mercies written into the hidden places of my life.

Jesus, You turn toward my wordless hunger and invite me to come closer. I do not know the depth of my emptiness, or the greatness of Your filling, until I follow You home. Amen

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