When He Doesn’t Fix It

But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me.  Psalm 131:2

When a mother weans her child, she must deny him what he wants and then comfort him when he realizes he can’t have it.  She weans him because it is necessary for his growth into a new phase of life.  She appears cruel to the child, yet he doesn’t think twice about turning to her for consolation.  Because she loves him, she persists in the training but also aches at the pain she is causing.

So it is with God.  He weans me off things that are not good for me.  He often withholds healing for a greater good that is a mystery for a time.  He delays deliverance for reasons I might never know.  The life of faith is not for the fainthearted.

So when things don’t feel right, when my heart is churning, when I’m tired of waiting, when my old wounds don’t appear to be any less severe, when I’m sick of myself, when I want what I want, when I dig deep to try to will my soul to be quiet to no avail, it takes grace beyond what I can manufacture to run to the One who could fix everything that plagues me ~ but doesn’t.  I could be tormented about why He restrains Himself, why He withholds, why I continue to live in the period of the ‘not yet’, but at that moment, I need Him to comfort me. 

There are periods in every life when answers aren’t provided.  What can be counted on are everlasting arms.  He is about comforting instead of fixing.  The song of the One who rocks us as children can still be heard. 

Your grace carries me through to glory.  Amen

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