In the integrity of my heart and the innocence of my hands I have done this.” Then God said to him in the dream, “Yes, I know that you have done this in the integrity of your heart, and it was I who kept you from sinning against me. Therefore I did not let you touch her. Genesis 20:5-6 ESV
Does God ever see me when I’m about to sin and do something to prevent it? Apparently yes. And as a parent, I understand. We often remove a temptation from a child because we know it is too much for them to handle.
To save the lives of his family, Abraham gave Sarah to a pagan king. He did it to ‘help God’ ~ as he believed that he must take matters into his own hands to preserve the promises God had made regarding his descendants. Abimelech was the innocent party as he had no idea Sarah was married. In making her a part of his harem, he would have slept with her but God intervened by revealing that Sarah was Abraham’s wife, not his sister. Fear gripped the king’s heart and he acted honorably toward Sarah for fear of the consequences.
I’m so glad that many of the things I have wanted, and asked for, God didn’t give me. God removed things, and people, that would have harmed me on my spiritual journey. It felt cruel years ago but time has revealed that God prevented dangerous detours in my spiritual journey. He kept me safe by saving me from myself. My spiritual immaturity would have acted out.
You may be experiencing the pain of loss. God seems unloving as He takes away what you believe you need. It can be a person, a resource, or an opportunity that holds promise. His direct involvement to block your way can be a stumbling block in your relationship with Him. The essence of Christianity is simple and childlike. Jesus loves me, He proved it, and I trust Him no matter what. Period.
What is the answer when God appears guilty of withholding from me what is good? I remember this: The most brilliant rationales of men fall apart when measured against the goodness that drives the decisions of an omniscient and sovereign God.
However things appear today, You love me and always act in my best interest. When I distrust this, Lord, I put my heart in danger. Help my unbelief. In Jesus’ name, Amen