But Abram said, “O Lord God, what will you give me, for I continue childless, and the heir of my house is Eliezer of Damascus?” Genesis 15:2 ESV
Abandoning prayer about anything is a mistake but abandoning prayer for what I’m most in need of is a grave error. Prayerlessness is the result of unbelief. I have concluded that God can’t, or won’t, do anything good for me. When I read God’s promises, I can be a skeptic, because they are so far out of my reach.
God promised Abram an heir, with descendants as numerous as the sands of the sea. The thought of this must have seemed ludicrous to Abram because, at that point, his only heir was a slave of his household. He and his wife, Sarah, were too old to bear children. Yet in spite of this obstacle, Abram believed and his faith that God could do the impossible was credited to him as righteousness.
I frequently ask myself where I have lost faith in God. When captivity spans 15 years, when infertility enters the second decade of a marriage, when a wayward child doesn’t call home in years, when depression becomes a way of life, when financial struggles become the norm, when the family experiences a seemingly irreparable breach, these are the kinds of things that tempt me to lose faith.
I need to hear the voice of the God of Abraham. He lives in Spirit form, right in my own heart. He’s speaking constantly, wooing me to believe, wooing me to hope in Him again. He is the One who does the impossible as He rewards the ones who persevere in prayer.
At this moment, the embers of faith are stirring in someone reading this. Is it you? Tears of relief are in your eyes as you realize that deep discouragement no longer need be your friend. You can be fully alive to God, fully alive to faith, once again! As you and I look at a few of the sad themes of our lives, we can numb out and feel nothing. That is the very area where prayers of faith need to live.
I infuse my unbelief with your hope-giving Word. Amen