Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” John 20:29
It’s hard to trust something or someone that you can’t see. Jesus knew that and and said that those of us who place all our confidence in Him will be blessed. Faith can erode quickly when we see no evidence of an invisible God. I knew what it’s like to arrive at a place where I had no confidence in Him anymore. I ceased to see the vastness of God but the issue was not about a God who had grown anemic; it was about how the enemy had deceived me through my adversity. He lied and I bought it. I had fallen into the black hole of unbelief. I found myself on a dead end street until faith was restored.
Now that I’m older, here’s what I’ve learned. At the point where belief and unbelief meet at the fork in the road, self-preservation is born. When I believe God to be impotent, I rise to the occasion to take care of myself. In arrogance and in fear, I conceive ways to cope in order to survive. This is all a reaction to the lie that God is powerless. I do not realize that my plans, oaths, and new alliances will be wasted.
What is the battle plan? 1. Confess my unbelief and my fears. 2. Ask God to comfort me and give me faith. 3. Force-feed the Word into my heart. 4. Go back to the specific place where belief ended and unbelief was conceived; ask the Holy Spirit to speak to me about that tenuous place so that I can understand and learn from it.
Jesus is tender with my wounds. He is the gentle healer. His heart is for me but I must be tough on my sin of unbelief. Healing comes when I find the corresponding truths from God’s Word that confront my specific lies. I begin to live differently when I recite God’s Words out loud. (“I once believed _________ but God said ______________.”) This takes time. There must be a daily resolve to keep embracing what God says by asking Him to write His Word on my heart. What follows if I am diligent? Spiritual prosperity. An enlarged view of God. The glorious freedom that comes from living in truth.
You meant it! “You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.” I believe. Amen