A Lifetime of Waiting


So they went up out of Egypt and came to the land of Canaan to their father Jacob. And they told him, “Joseph is still alive, and he is ruler over all the land of Egypt.” And his heart became numb, for he did not believe them. But when they told him all the words of Joseph, which he had said to them, and when he saw the wagons that Joseph had sent to carry him, the spirit of their father Jacob revived. Genesis 45:25-28

         When Joseph disappeared from Jacob’s life, something broke inside of this father’s heart. Hope died. His spirit withered. It would be this way for another 20+ years until he got the news that Joseph was not dead but very much alive in Egypt. When he heard it, he could not believe it was true. He had already grieved his son’s death. Disillusionment had been his companion. His heart had grown cold to good news. When enough evidence had been presented however, Jacob’s heart revived. It came to life after a lifetime of learning to live with disappointment.

         Can God do a new thing in my later years? Yes. When something catastrophic happens in my teens and I learn to adapt by closing off my heart, can God introduce something called hope years later? Yes.

       When I’ve been a dreamer in my twenties and one disappointment after another causes me to shove my dreams underground, can God resurrect them decades later? Yes. In my mortality, decades seem like an eternity and fool me into believing that life is always going to be this way. Trust in a God who can write a new plotline no longer seems like an option.

         What is it you’re waiting for today? Or, should I ask what you’ve stopped hoping for? Longevity has revealed a trail of disappointment and it would suggest that it’s futile to trust God for anything different. You believe that prayer and hope in God’s promises is for someone still enjoying the dreams of their youth. Oh, it’s not so. Not everything is as it appears. Jacob held what he thought was bloody coat of his son Joseph, but the evidence of his supposed death was a sham. Joseph was very much alive and living out his faith a day at a time until some future day when he could send word to His father that all was well.

         This could be the very day of your breakthrough. Tell your heart to stand at attention to see the miraculous hand of God write the next chapter of your life.

 I lived to see my own resurrection. All because of You. Amen

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2 thoughts on “A Lifetime of Waiting

  1. Christine, thank you for this. This has been me…sometimes still is. But I am growing, trusting, resting and believing that He who began a good work in me will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.

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