HOLDING ON – REFUSING TO BE FAITHLESS
Then he said, “Let me go, for the day has broken.” But Jacob said, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” Genesis 32:26
I know the verse, “The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.” James 5:16 I learned it as a kid but learning the words and understand the meaning can be many decades removed. Jacob wrestled with God until he prevailed. Though his hip gave out, the pivotal source of power for a wrestler, he did not quit. Pain and fatigue did not deter him from the goal. The blessing was of such value to him that nothing killed the desire.
There are situations that can appear absolutely hopeless. Evidence wants to prove that nothing changes because of faith. Things get worse. The pain of watching everything regress nearly shuts me down. The fatigue that accompanies long-term stress wears on me and causes me to look ten years older than I am. Faithlessness beckons to me like an old friend and promises me rest. The thought of my heart sliding into hopeless oblivion is attractive. I just want the striving to cease.
Is this where you are today? You’ve been wrestling with God for a long time over one single thing. The more you pray, the more things seem to decline. To continue to keep your heart alive to hope and faith appears futile. You’re fast approaching the line where quitting pretends to be the smart thing to do. Dreaming is painful. God appears to be cruel as He withholds the blessing you seek.
This is what it is to live in the shadows. And I have. But let me testify that I have seen powerful prayers answered in a week. Last week brought three miracles in quick succession. I have also labored in prayer over two matters and saw both answered. One breakthrough took twenty nine years, the other took thirty two. The deliverance of both was glorious. There were moments in the journey that I collapsed into faithlessness. It was a lonely place and I didn’t stay there long. ‘Prevailing’ brought the blessing – and now I will have greater stamina in the next spiritual battle because I know not to give up.
Over what issue have you taken hold of God in prayer today? How long have you labored? Hang on. Dig your fingers into the fabric of his robe and don’t let go. Today could be the day He speaks a word and prison bars open wide.
I love You, Lord. I love what I learned about You through wrestling. I value what I learned about myself in the battle. Treasures of the darkness. Oh, thank you. Amen