How Desperate Am I?


In the days of wheat harvest Reuben went and found mandrakes in the field and brought them to his mother Leah. Then Rachel said to Leah, “Please give me some of your son’s mandrakes.” But she said to her, “Is it a small matter that you have taken away my husband? Would you take away my son’s mandrakes also?” Genesis 30:14

         Is there someone near you who has everything you want? You’ve kept your distance because being near them is painful. Now, in what seems like a cruel joke, they have been blessed yet again with something that would be lifesaving to you but it’s in their hands, not yours. You consider swallowing your pride to beg.

         This is the story of Leah and Rachel. Leah has borne Jacob many sons. Rachel has none and this is agonizing for her. To add fuel to the fire, Leah’s son comes in from the field with mandrakes – a plant believed to have properties that cure barrenness. Rachel is willing to do anything at this point to have children – even if it means asking Leah for her son’s mandrakes.

         When I believe that my fate lies outside of God’s providence, I will set out to turn things in my favor. I will even assume any false posture of friendship to win over my enemy, the one whom I believe is the key to moving forward. This is where manipulation is born. If I ask him outright for what he has, he’ll laugh in my face. If I pretend to be his friend and come bearing compliments, he may succumb to flattery.

         Are you in a desperate place today because someone who has little heart for you possesses the very thing you need? Battling envy is hard enough but to think that I must be clever enough deceive him seems like climbing Mt. Everest. If I’m Rachel, what do I do?

         It is not up to my ingenuity to secure my future. The timing of my blessing and the length of my wilderness are in God’s hands. He has not forgotten me. Blessing is mine though it may appear non-existent.   When another has what I think I need, I must remember that God has what I need. When He gives it, there will be true celebration of His glory. When I force someone else to give it by prying his hands open, the party is hollow.

Every single thing I need, You have. If I don’t have it yet, I must deal with my desperation in prayer. If I distrust You, help me and give me grace to stay true. Amen

Journal Question: What plot have you conceived to carry out today that will turn things in your favor? Do you love God enough to abandon it? Will you cast all your cares on God and wait for His answer?

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