CAN I TRUST MY SENSES?
Jacob said to his father, “I am Esau your firstborn. I have done as you told me; now sit up and eat of my game, that your soul may bless me.” Then Isaac said to Jacob, “Please come near, that I may feel you, my son, to know whether you are really my son Esau or not. The voice is Jacob’s voice, but the hands are the hands of Esau.” He said, “Are you really my son Esau?” He answered, “I am.” Genesis 27:18-27
It’s hard, isn’t it? There are times when I fail to listen to my gut talking and pay dearly for it. But then, there are as just as many times when I follow my gut instinct and make disastrous choices. The need to be led and ruled by spiritual understanding rather than my fallible sense of things is crucial.
I’m reviewing this scene from Isaac’s life. He’s old, nearly blind, and quite vulnerable. He’s about to be deceived so that Jacob can get the firstborn’s blessing. Isaac is the means to an end. He does not know it though. He assumes that family treats him honorably. A bit naive.
His first instinct was right. He believed it to be Jacob’s voice and he was right but as soon as he felt his son’s hands, he was confused. Knowing that blindness impairs judgment, he should have stopped and asked the Lord for insight. Instead, he made a crucial decision by his senses.
There are times I will swear something is true. I have mounted my evidence, feel something strongly in my heart, and no one can tell me otherwise. Time goes by and I discover that I was completely wrong. I didn’t have all the facts. My judgment, like Isaac, was impaired by something I didn’t acknowledge. Humility, the kind that comes after failure, incurs much remorse.
What important decision are you making today via your own instinct? You believe you are making a solid choice based on what you’ve seen and felt. You argue that you have a good track record of sound judgment and that you’re feeling pretty confident. Where is God in this? None of us are infallible because of some innate giftedness.
The only way to live is to be aware of my need for God. I can’t trust myself on crucial matters. I am not advocating becoming an insecure person who wrings their hands over all matters great and small. Far from it. Great strength and confidence can be mine but only as I depend on God for all things. Minefields are exposed. Disasters are averted.
Daily, I joyfully admit that I am only wise in You. Amen
Journal Question: Over what are you saying today, “I just know that this is the right thing to do. I’ve thought about it for a long time.” Would you be willing to stop and ask God about it, to cast all judgment upon Him for review? Your future depends on it.