THE EMOTIONAL LANDSCAPE OF A NEW YEAR
I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed. Psalm 34:4-5
I’ve been praying about what to write at the beginning of this brand new year. Yesterday, God gave it to me in a beautiful moment of breakthrough with our new golden retriever named Mollie.
Last summer, our 13-year-old family dog went into kidney failure and had to be put down. It was an awful day as it is for anyone who makes their pet a part of the family. A month later, I decided to surprise my husband with a new golden retriever. Because we are ‘rescue people’, I went straight to the Golden Retriever Rescue of Atlanta. After a 6-week process, and after much prayer that God would bring us the dog of His choice, Mollie became ours. As with any rescue dog, she came with a story and with some fears to overcome.
The day we picked her up and drove home, I stroked her face and said to her, “You’ve just had your last bad day!” From that moment on, she’s been loved well. She’s my companion and spends the day with me in my office. As with all our pets, I’ve come to make up little love songs for her; short songs like jingles on TV. I sing them to her a dozen times a day.
How long has it taken her to relax in this atmosphere of love? Quite a while. The love is safe but she doesn’t fully know it yet. Just yesterday, there was a breakthrough moment. She was sprawled out on our king size bed, I knelt down and was singing to her, and she rolled on her back, four paws in the air, and grunted in pleasure. First time! I cried, I’m not ashamed to say.
What will be the emotional landscape for any of us who continually seek God for emotional connectedness? A gradual warming of our hearts. He promises to deliver us from all our fears. Like Mollie, I come to God with a story that has compromised my ability to trust Him. His love is perfect though. He sings to me. He soothes my fears. (Zephaniah 3:17) But it takes a while for me to trust Him. As a perfect Father, He waits and continues to woo me. He understands all my reservations.
I must know this. Every day of 2014, He will be singing over me. He will be scaling the mountains of my fears to assure me that I can lay down my sword. This time next year, I will tell of some breakthrough moments.
You’ve brought me so far but perfect love casts out all fears. Whatever is left, melt them. Amen
Journal Question: If you haven’t yet experienced the love of God the way you wish, describe what is missing. Explore your story to understand the connection. Ask God for a breakthrough.