DISCERNING WHAT I REALLY NEED
Let my cry come before you, O LORD; give me understanding according to your Word! Psalm 119:169
Do you know the frustration of trying to buy a present for someone who has everything? If you ask them what they want for their birthday, they sit casually; look off into space and try to think of something that would amuse them. When money is tight for the buyer, this is a hard pill to swallow.
Some come to God with casual requests. Like a foolish child who doesn’t know what ‘good’ thing to ask for, God is also one who is asked for trinkets. If only the one who prayed really understood himself so that he could petition God for things that would change his heart.
David’s prayer comes to God in the form of a cry. No casual intercession. The first thing he pleads for is the understanding to even know how to pray! He is bankrupt of discernment and the only way David knows he can acquire it is to connect with God’s Word. Scripture is the mirror through which he can see himself clearly.
What is it I really need today? I contend, from this scripture and others, that I don’t really know what to ask for. God must show me. If my prayers are boring, lacking the tone of a cry, that is a sure sign that I am blind to my spiritual condition. I must ask God to open my eyes to my need and His glory. Seeing the first against the backdrop of the latter will turn disinterested prayer chatter into passionate supplication.
Take the veil off my eyes, Father. When I open Your Word today, let me see myself as You see me. Spirit, pray for me through my own tongue. Amen