Nana’s Blue Bowl

My heart stands in awe of Your words. I rejoice at Your Word as one who finds a great treasure. Psalm 119:161-162

Twenty years ago, I dropped by Pier One on the day of their best clearance sale. I was going to shop for a very large salad bowl so I went straight to the dinnerware section. In front of me was a beautiful blue and white bowl. It was 75% off and a real steal. I was thrilled and made my purchase. This many years later, I still love it. Ron reminded me the other night that the bowl has quite a history and that got me thinking.

I’ve used it to serve a main dish kind of salad when I’ve fed a lot of people at our table. A salad for ten people is no problem.   The rest of the time, the bowl has graced the middle of our kitchen table, or has sat on the counter, or has been placed in the middle of our stove with lights overhead shining down on it. It’s always the focal point. What’s in it? Bananas, raisins, good chocolate, nuts, licorice, trail mix, apples and pears. It’s usually stocked fairly well and the contents are constantly switched up. Now, here’s the fun part. Our whole family heads straight for the bowl whenever they walk in the house. Adult or child, it’s calling their name. There’s a quick, ‘hello’, and then someone makes a beeline for the bowl.

When our grandsons were smaller, they would run to the counter and hold out their arms to us to be lifted up. They’d paw through the bowl to find what they wanted. Just say the words ‘blue bowl’ in our house and everyone feels happy.

While this feeds the flesh and pleases the senses, it is not unlike what happens to my spiritual senses when I approach the scriptures on a good day. When my spiritual hunger is engaged and my need is on my sleeve, I can’t wait to mine for gold. I never know what I’m going to find either. I have to keep digging until I’m given just the right ‘word’ for the day. God keeps His word stocked – full of surprises – and loves it when I love it.

I know it’s just a foretaste of the ‘pleasures forevermore’ that will be waiting for me when I step foot into my eternal home. Exhaling earth’s air and inhaling celestial air marks the moment when my appetite is completely satiated.

Feed me. Satisfy my cravings. Delight me. In You are pleasures forevermore. Amen

Lifesaving Wounds

See now that I, I am He, and there is no god besides Me; It is I who put to death and give life. I have wounded and it is I who heal, And there is no one who can deliver from My hand.  Deuteronomy 32:39

What exactly is a life-saving wound? 

It is a wound that comes wrapped in a loving purpose. A wound allowed by a Friend, not an enemy. A wounding that, when redeemed, will one day yield a joy so deep it dwarfs the agony that once felt unbearable.

The tragedy is that so many children of God never see their past this way. They name their wounds only as tragedies. “Victim” hardens into a permanent label. Deprivation carves out a defeated mindset. And the God who was—and is—sovereign over their story becomes, in their eyes, more adversary than Ally. They reason that only an enemy would inflict a wound.  But enemies mean to kill or maim.  God wounds to save and bless.  Never do I suffer anything that is not an installment to something glorious. 

  • A child who is never chosen, never the object of anyone’s affection, grows up carrying the heavy cloak of rejection. They move through the world assuming they are forgettable. But the wound can be lifesaving when he discovers that God is a pursuer. He tracks them through the years, draws them to the cross, adopts them into His family, and pours favor over their once-unwanted life.
  • A teenager who has been mocked and bullied because he is “different” grows into an adult unsure of his voice. He believes his distinctiveness is a defect. Yet that wound can be life-saving when he realizes that God set him apart on purpose. The very traits that made him a target are the markings of leadership.
  • A woman blindsided by divorce papers feels ripped in two. Betrayal echoes through her body. She is sure she will never again feel whole. But that wound can be life-saving when, driven to God, she finds Him not only as Father but as Bridegroom. Day after day He meets her in the quiet, loves her without flinching, whispers comfort, provides faithfully, and proves that she is not abandoned but cherished.

What is the nature of your unhealed wound?  And what is the need that rages as a result?  Are you willing to consider that the need you’ve just isolated is life-saving if it takes you into the arms of a God who does not trivialize what you suffered, but refuses to let it have the final word?  Look up. Believe. Live in the promises.

Revive my faith. Reinterpret my wounds.  Amen

What It Is To Pour Out

Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us.  Psalm 62:8 

How many people do I really have with whom I can speak unfiltered—no careful spin, no guarding, no editing? With whom can I empty my heart and know that perfect wisdom is listening, sifting, and answering? If I’m honest, it’s a very short list. To speak that freely is a rare gift.       

The Hebrew phrase “pour out” is as vivid as it sounds: to empty, to spill, to let what is inside come out. I’m struck by how often Scripture uses it. Dependent prayer is described as “pouring out one’s soul.” God Himself “pours out his wrath” on hardened rebellion. And then there is this: “I will pour out on the house of David… a spirit of grace and pleas for mercy, so that, when they look on me, on him whom they have pierced, they shall mourn.” (Zechariah 12:10). Judgment poured out, mercy poured out, the Spirit poured out—Scripture is heavy with this language.

There are times I pour out my heart to a few trusted friends. But do I feel that free with God? Do I censor myself in prayer, weighing every word, trying to sound composed and mature? Do I sit on my anger, my disappointment, my confusion and call it “faith”? Or is prayer, for me, a place where I can truly tip my soul and let everything come—knowing my heart is landing in utterly safe hands? God invites that kind of honesty, and I am held in a Love that is not threatened by my mess.

Two images grip me.

First, I see myself lifting my heart to God, like a cup, and gently tipping it, letting the contents run out before Him.
Second, I see Him, in response, pouring out His own Spirit over me; washing, filling, softening what has grown hard.

Both are beautiful, but they are not equal. Pouring out my heart will bring some relief, yes. But the real transformation comes when He pours out His Spirit. When that happens, nothing in my inner world can stay quite the same.

So, with confidence and without restraint, I pour out my heart to You, Lord. And I ask—pour out Your Spirit upon me. Where I am fractured, make me whole; where I am numb, make me alive; where I am afraid, make me steadfast in You. Amen

Singing a Peculiar Song

By the waters of Babylon, there we sat down and wept, when we remembered Zion. On the willows there we hung up our lyres.  For there our captors required of us songs, and our tormentors, mirth, saying, “Sing us one of the songs of Zion!”  How shall we sing the Lord’s song in a foreign land?    Psalm 137:1-3

Not all Psalms were written by David.  This one was written by a Jewish exile living in Babylon.  Having seen his homeland destroyed and then taken as a captive into the foreign culture of the Babylonian Empire, he struggled to get his spiritual bearings.  His new homeland was corrupt and excessive, and the people of God stuck out like sore thumbs. 

They were invited to sing their simple songs of faith to the taunts of the crowd, not unlike the Jews who were made to perform in the camps for Nazi soldiers.  Brilliant violinists, violists, cellists, and bass violin players formed string quartets to pacify the military tyrants who despised them. 

The song of the redeemed is being rendered just as peculiar against the backdrop of these unsettling days.  As we continue to witness rapid decline into the abyss of godlessness, we must not conform.  God’s grace will enable us to stand and to sing.  Our allegiance is to the kingdom of heaven and His culture of holiness.     

There is an ongoing emotional and spiritual adjustment for what we’re witnessing and what we know will come next.  In our grief, God invites us to sing the songs of the exiles. We are clearly outsiders and the brunt of society’s jokes, but our voices must not be silenced.  The noise of evil must not prevail over the praise of God’s people.  It’s not time to close the piano lid.  It’s not time to retire the pen of the poet.  It’s not time to put away the instruments.  Never has the music of faith been more important and never are the songs sweeter than when saints raise their joyful voices with tear stained faces. 

You are my joy.  Let my hope sing.  In Jesus’ name, Amen

Pushing Through Reluctance

His delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night.
  Psalm 1:2

When God’s Word feels like a feast, I linger over it. I underline, I savor, I whisper, “Oh yes, Lord,” and I truly mean it. But what about the days when my heart is seized with worry?  Do I delight in the commands that tell me not to fear? When I’m heavy with regret, do I rejoice in the promises of fresh mercy? When I’m quietly nursing a grudge, do I love the words that call me to forgive? I can be like a child who is thrilled with the rules that fit my mood, yet resents the ones that confront what I don’t want to surrender.

Every day brings a new set of circumstances that tests my love for God’s ways. I will not naturally delight in the parts of His Word that correct me, expose me, or nudge me out of my emotional comfort zone. When Jesus invites me to step out of familiar feelings that have become my default, (though they fit like my favorite old shirt and pair of jeans), I need to recognize what they really are.  Grave clothes. They belong to a life still wrapped in the tomb. Jesus calls every child of God out of the darkness and into resurrection life. It sounds beautiful and stirring until His light actually exposes my shadows. Then I discover how resistant I can be, how easily offended when He touches the places I’d rather keep hidden. Part of me would rather stay in the tomb I know than risk the freedom I don’t.

The ways of the flesh are the ways of death. I know this. I can say it, teach it, write it, and still find those old ways woven deeply into my fallen nature. So I have to speak truth to my own soul, sometimes many times a day: Choose His way. Trust His heart. Move toward the light. As I lean into obedience and push through my initial offense, my reluctance, my fear, I begin to taste something different on the other side. I realize I am breathing more freely. And in that space, delight is no longer forced; it begins to flow.

When David promises to “delight” in God’s statutes, it is both tender and courageous. Yes, it is the language of affection, but it is also the language of faith before the feeling fully blooms. He is saying, in essence, I will love what You love, even when my heart has to grow into it.

I need Your grace to desire You.  Keep my heart alive and straining for the Light. In Jesus name,  Amen

When Our Loved One Is Up Against a Wall

The LORD foils the plans of the nations; he thwarts the purposes of the peoples. Psalm 33:10

Walls are meant to keep enemies out, but they can also keep prisoners in.

Ask those who lived under the shadow of the Great Wall, behind the barbed wire of North Korea, or in the long shadow of the Berlin Wall. A barrier can feel like protection, or a sentence.

God, in His severe mercy, sometimes builds walls in the life of a wayward son or daughter. That comforts us when the prodigal we love is racing toward destruction. But it is agony to watch them pound their fists against an invisible barrier. Nothing quite works. Doors that seem to swing open for others stay shut for them. Job applications vanish into silence. Savings meant to fund their dreams are swallowed by unexpected expenses. The pattern is too consistent to be coincidence: they are being lovingly hemmed in.

This is often where we step in and say, “Turn to God. He can turn your life around.” That is true. But if we are not careful, we can present God as a cosmic genie whose main role is to sponsor their plans. Telling them simply to “pray and ask for what you want” overlooks the deeper issue: they want everything but God. If He granted every request in that state, the very gifts would harden into idols, glittering just enough to keep them from facing their real spiritual poverty.

When we recognize that God Himself is thwarting a path, we are invited into a different kind of love. Here are three ways we can respond:

  1. Pray first, then speak with holy tenderness.
  2. With humility, help them see that the resistance they keep meeting may not be bad luck, but the loving hand of God blocking a destructive road.
  3. Our instinct is to problem solve, to open doors, to smooth the path so they can finally “succeed.” But if God is the One doing the thwarting, our interventions can become interference. Love sometimes means stepping back and letting His wall stand.

Our deepest prayer is not that they “catch a break,” but that they bow the knee. We ask God to bring them to the place where they want Him more than they want their plans—even if the road to that place is rugged.

Lord, I will be Your prophet and their intercessor. Amen

Songs Of The Psalms

Your testimonies are righteous forever; Give me understanding that I may live. Psalm 119:144

When are the Psalms normally read? When I’m hurting. Whether sickness, betrayal, danger, or the pain of being falsely accused, I can be sure that there will be a Psalm that correlates. But if a Psalm is read only to gain comfort and validation, I am missing out on a goldmine of instruction.

Let me speak more personally. The honesty of the Psalms can scare me. I have historically been afraid of extreme complaint. I’m shy of being called a drama queen if I join David in exclaiming that ‘my tears have been my food day and night’, even if it’s been true. Many of us have been raised in environments that frown on this kind of emotion. We’ve been told that we are spiritually unstable if we moan, if we ache, when the effects of the fall touch our personal lives. But I would do well to read the Psalms out loud when I’m in distress to train myself to speak with gut honesty to God. The Psalms show me how to well order the expressions of grief, anger, and hopelessness.

But that’s only the beginning of the value I’ll gain by living in the Psalms. They will not only encourage me to own my feelings but they will also instruct me on how to think in the midst of them. How should my faith be expressed when I’m in pain? What kinds of things should I praise God for when I need to worship yet don’t feel like it? As someone who was raised in a stoic home, my praise is often stilted. To abandon myself to worship is often a stretch. What kind of catalyst does it take for me to be able to genuinely pour out praise without any restraint? When I experience divine deliverance and life-saving revelation! I have lived long enough to fall on my knees, literally, in gratitude for God’s answers to desperate prayers. I have praised God profusely for speaking to me after years of deafening silence. I have exclaimed with tears, “I know now that You are mighty. You are a deliverer. You have been with me all along.”

The Psalms challenge me to be balanced. If I lean toward reading them for intellectual enjoyment, they will challenge me to also have a heart response. If I lean toward a cathartic release of my heart, they will challenge me to espouse theology and to risk faith beyond my tears. Ever balanced, they instruct me on how to think, and how to feel, like Jesus.

Make me balanced. Shape my thoughts and free my heart to beat like Yours. In Jesus’ name, Amen

The Shaping Power Of The Psalms

Your testimonies are righteous forever; Give me understanding that I may live.  Psalm 119:144

When are the Psalms normally read?  When someone is hurting.  Whether sickness, betrayal, danger, or the pain of being falsely accused, we can be sure there will be a Psalm that correlates.  But if a Psalm is read-only to gain comfort and validation, we are missing out on a goldmine. 

The honesty of the Psalms has intimidated me.  I have historically been afraid of extreme complaints.  I’m shy of being called a drama queen if I join David in exclaiming that ‘my tears have been my food day and night,’ even if it’s true.    But I would do well to read the Psalms aloud when I’m in distress, to train myself to speak with gut honesty to God.  The Psalms show me how to well order the expressions of travail. 

The Psalms not only encourage me to own my feelings, but they also instruct me on how to think in the midst of them.  They unveil the kinds of things I should praise God for when I need to worship yet don’t feel like it.  

The Psalms challenge me to be balanced.  If I lean toward reading them for intellectual enjoyment, they will challenge me also to have a heart response.  If I lean toward a cathartic release of my heart, they will challenge me to espouse theology and to risk faith beyond tears.  Ever balanced, they instruct me on how to think and how to feel like Jesus. 

Shape my thoughts and free my heart to beat like Yours.  Amen

Next Year and Stability

By faith Joseph, as he was nearing the end of his life, mentioned the exodus of the Israelites and gave instructions concerning his bones.  Hebrews 11:22

Joseph never forgot the stories of his great grandfather.  They had been passed down to him while sitting at the feet of his father, Jacob.  Though Joseph was rejected by his brothers and sent into slavery, and then lived most of his life in Egypt, he wasn’t fooled about God’s promise concerning the promised land.  When his people came to Egypt and enjoying a period prosperity and then unbearable suffering, he never thought this would be their permanent home.  He could foresee the exodus of his people years down the road even though he did not know the details.  He knew they were headed for the land God had shown Abraham.

Joseph envisioned it, and that is impressive enough. But then he put action to his faith through the plans he put into motion regarding his own death and burial.  He made no ‘just in case’ caveats. “I’d like to be buried with my people if they leave Egypt but if they don’t, here’s what I want done with my bones.”  No, so sure was he of the word of his God. This is one of the reasons he makes it into the hall of faith.

When I begin to distrust God’s promises, I will jump to make alternate plans in case God doesn’t come through.   Joseph had reasons to wonder if God had changed his mind about the destiny of His people as he reviewed the drought that nearly killed his clan, their migration to Egypt, and their prosperity since they integrated into Egyptian culture.  Yet Joseph wasn’t fooled by appearance.

Once God has made His will for me clear, I should never have a backup plan just in case.  Despite the tumultuous political year ahead of us in 2024, despite personal challenges I can’t yet anticipate, God’s Word still stands. His plans for me and for you prevail.

Lord, nothing will deter my footsteps.

For 12 Years, He Missed Him

After three days, his parents found him in the temple.  His mother said to him, ‘Son, how could you treat us this way?  Your father and I have been anxiously looking for you.’  And He said to them, ‘Why is it that you were looking for Me?  Did you not know that I had to be in my Father’s house?’  Luke 2:46,48

Every parent knows what it’s like to momentarily lose sight of your child in public. Your stomach drops like lead when you realize that they are not where they are supposed to me. The word ‘kidnap’ assaults your mind immediately.

Mary and Joseph brought twelve-year-old Jesus to the temple. While on their way home, they realized that Jesus was not with them. They searched frantically for three entire days.  Re-tracing their steps, they ended up back at the temple and were shocked to find him there. He was listening in to the many spiritual conversations that took place in God’s house. Still distraught, Joseph and Mary asked Him how he could have done such a thing. His answer? “Did you not know that I had to be in my Father’s house?” He seemed shocked that they would have looked elsewhere.

In all the times I’ve read this story over the years, it never occurred to me that Jesus would feel something far different than anyone else when in the presence of God. Jesus left His Father to come to earth and hadn’t seen Him for twelve years. There had to be homesickness in his soul for His Father’s company. The memory of being near God was in his spiritual DNA. To visit the temple and to approach the holy of holies, the place where God’s Spirit called ‘home’, re-awakened the feelings of being home in glory. He was near His Father again – yet on earth. Did His heart break at the thought of leaving Him? His attachment to Mary and Joseph had to pale in comparison.

I don’t know if you believe in near-death experiences. While a few seem exaggerated, I believe many have been real. There is a common theme in the stories where people experienced time in the presence of God; they didn’t want to return to earth. Yes, they loved the people they left. Yes, they even knew their death would be grieved. Yet, the magnetism of God’s presence drew them. The memory of it changed their lives forever. For their remaining days, they dream of the day they will again be eternally in the presence of their Heavenly Father.

Are my times with You as life-changing?  You are drawing me with an everlasting love so how could I ever want to be anywhere else!   Amen