I acknowledged my sin to you, and I did not cover my iniquity; I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the LORD,” and you forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah Psalm 32:5
Acknowledging our sin, while God requires it to be forgiven, can be a tricky thing. I think about Cain’s confession to the Lord after killing his brother. The pain he expressed had more to do with what he would suffer than what God suffered. Cain said to the LORD, “Behold, you have driven me today away from the ground, and from your face I shall be hidden. I shall be a fugitive and a wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me.” Genesis 4:13-14 There is no thought that God’s heart was broken when Cain killed Abel for doing something holy. What’s missing in Cain’s response to God’s curse? A real apology! Cain never said, “I’m sorry.” He only considers his own skin and the ways he will faint under his punishment.
Do you know someone who expresses no remorse? They are simply unable to recognize what their sin against another causes. Many wives and husbands are cruel to each other. Hurtful things are said and treacherous things are done. When the one who feels betrayed speaks up, backs up, and expresses pain, remorse is absent. But when the pain of consequences is felt, a token “Sorry!” is expressed. There is an expectation that everything should be back to normal. He, or she, fails to know the repercussions of his actions.
All throughout Israel’s history, God qualified the kinds of tears they cried. God laid out the ground rules from the beginning. “Obey me and you’ll be blessed. Disobey and you’ll be led into captivity.” They did well under the leadership of righteous kings for short periods of time. Eventually though, they regressed and began to worship idols, throw their infants in the fire, and act disgracefully toward their God. The consequences were felt. God used enemies, like the Babylonians, to take His people as slaves. In their great distress, they cried out to God to deliver them. But God said, in essence, “You are not crying because you agree with me about your sin. You’re crying because you hate captivity.” Is this not like Cain?
I bring the message home to my own heart today. How often have I said, “Father, I blew it. I did ‘this’ and now I’ve lost what I treasured. Forgive me.” My apology was all about me, about what I lost. I did not picture the face of my heartbroken Father. Self-pity rather than remorse was expressed in my so-called apology.
Only You, LORD, can give me a true heart of repentance. Amen
Lord, forgive us for looking to broken cisterns for living water. As your children, we may live wanting, groaning for your kingdom to come, but we will not be crippled by uncertainty. We will not succumb to the anxiety of second guessing our future. Our leaders disappoint us but You rule perfectly. Our joy and confidence is in Your Kingship. Each of us pray this out loud today until our whole beings believe it.
The ambassador leaves. He makes his home in China, or Pakistan, or Kenya. He does not look like anyone else nor truly live like anyone else there. He abides by the laws of his new country but he is not a citizen. He promotes and executes the policies of his country back home. He speaks on behalf of the president, on behalf of the government, knowing that as he exerts his rule, his leaders back home back him up. As long as he acts in accordance with his country’s principles, he is protected.
I remember when Jesus’ identity was questioned. He claimed that God was his Father. The religious leaders were indignant, calling him a liar. If Jesus had not been perfect, He could have easily risen up to defend himself the way we often do. “How dare you question my word! I told you that God was my Father and I am His Son. You apparently have no idea who you’re talking to!” Anyone other than Jesus would have been tempted to stand in the pride of his celebrity status. This temptation would have bitten most children of men.
Is there something I find myself in the middle of today that seems sticky? Perhaps if I were dealing with a stranger, I’d take a stand but because it’s a friend or family member, the waters muddy. I know there are repercussions if I think differently from those who know me best. To give myself a way out, I begin to rationalize. “I shouldn’t make a big deal out of this. It’s not like this is the end of the world if I give in.” Those thoughts signal a red flag. The real issue is this ~ What would Jesus do if he were in my place?

Each concept, taught by the Spirit, feels like putting together a child’s puzzle. Each piece is big, colorful, and fun to handle. I can see where it fits perfectly in the rest of the puzzle. Jesus’ words ring in my ear. “My yoke is easy and my burden is light.” I can finally say that I know this is true because sitting at His feet, as His student, is exhilarating. With such personalized teaching in a loving environment, who couldn’t thrive!