She said, `I will go after my lovers, who give me my food and my water, my wool and my linen, my oil and my drink.’ Therefore I will block her path with thorn bushes; I will wall her in so that she cannot find her way. Hosea 2: 5,6
Hosea married a prostitute. She bore him two children, grew discontent, and then went off to find other lovers. God reveals that her story will be my story ~ when I grow bored, turn away, and pursue other love interests. My discontent tricks me into believing that a detour, a distraction, is what I really need. I can name all the ways I think I’ll benefit but ‘shalom’ never materializes to the point of soul-filling. Disillusionment greets me at the end.
God actually planned it that way! He’s not cruel. He’s jealous. But with only fallen humanity as a backdrop to understand the meaning of jealousy, I can be tripped up thinking of God as the One who is jealous. But doesn’t it have to be a holy thing when He feels it? He is holy. He designed me in a way where He can be the only One who fills that aching void in my soul. He is the sole primary source for connection and romance.
God’s greatest desire is that I will pursue Him, commune with Him, and discover the pleasure for which I was created. With that in mind, what more loving thing could He do than thwart my spiritual affairs? Because He gave me free choice, He won’t stop me from wandering, but He will make sure that I come up empty when I turn to fickle sources. He hopes that my empty heart will drive me back to perfect Love.
Where are you looking for soul satisfaction today? When you repeatedly extend your heart to find love and connection and come up empty, it’s a sure sign that what you seek will not be found there. Your heart was made to rest near to the heart of God.
I’ve taken some long, hard journeys away from You. But I’m so glad I came home. Amen