When I Don’t Yet Know What I Want

Jesus looked around and saw them following.  ‘What do you want?’ he asked them.  John 1:38 NLT

Two men were so drawn to Jesus after witnessing His baptism that they abandoned their plans and started following Him.  Jesus, sensing them behind Him, asked them, “What do you want?” 

I’m not sure they knew what it was they were seeking.  You know how it is when the Spirit of God stirs your heart and the impact is wordless, right?  You’re aware of something stirring but you can’t put words to it yet.  I believe this was what happened with these two disciples.  Jesus intrigued them both, but they didn’t fully know why.  Not yet. 

They answered Jesus.  “Where are you staying?”  In other words, we want to know where your home is because we want more time with you.  Jesus wasn’t put off.  He told them that He would take them to where he was currently living.  He was accessible then ~ and still is. 

Christianity is the only faith that is intimate.  Leaders of religious movements develop a leadership style that keeps their followers at a distance.  The bigger the movement, the more out of reach they become.  But Jesus remained accessible to the people.  His invitation was true and heartfelt.  “Come unto me, all you who are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”   It was relevant in 30 A.D., and it’s relevant now as His Spirit comes close to draw me in. 

The King of Kings and Lord of Lords has numbered the hairs of my head, has kept every tear, and engraved my face and my name on the palms of His hands.  Every promise, He has written on my heart for safekeeping.

Jesus, as you were with these two disciples, You are with me.  In many ways, I’m unaware of my vast emptiness and Your great sufficiency unless I take you up on your invitation.  Amen

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