I’M SORRY FOR GOD 

Hot indignation seizes me because of the wicked, who forsake your law.  Psalm 119:53

            The writer of this emotional admission wasn’t horrified (meaning of indignation) for himself.  He wasn’t the one who was wronged.  God was.  He was so emotionally connected to God that when God was wronged, He felt it. 

            Is it not easier for us to sustain an injury yourself than to see it happen to someone I love?  Hurt my husband and I’ll churn inside more than if you hurt me.  Hurt my children and I feel instant rage.  Hurt my God and what is my response?  Perhaps the answer to that is a measure of my love, of my heart’s engagement with the One I say I worship. 

            Have you ever heard someone you know well curse God?  You cringe, then say under your breath, “Jesus, forgive them.  I’m so sorry.  I hope they don’t really mean that!”  People in pain say a lot of things they might not mean as strongly as it was said in the heat of the moment.  When the day passes, apologies are often made.  However, what about the people who truly despise God, who delight in breaking His law?  They know the truth, hate the truth, mock God, and intentionally go out to swagger in their sin.  Some dare to shake their fist toward heaven and cry, “Take that!” 

            I don’t know how God restrains Himself.  His longsuffering is a mystery.  But I do know this ~ When I see such blatant rebellion, my blood boils, then I am seized with sadness for their Creator.  He loves them, longs for them to know Him, but watches what they do with their free choice.

            I’m sorry for God.  Today, I just turn on the morning news to feel the sadness of His heart over the rampant evil in this world.  Who will cry His tears?  Who is willing to feel the tragedy of the sons of men and cry out for revival?  May it be the one who writes this….and every one who reads it.

Oh God, I’m sorry for your broken heart.  My tears speak the words I can not find.  Amen