Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water. John 7:38
A person’s deep emptiness will only be filled by a relationship with Jesus. Not only will it be satisfied but it will overflow from the reservoir of life that Jesus pours in. That is the meaning of Jesus’ words here. Even on a bad day, a believer’s heart will spill out abundant life. Get that person talking about Jesus and tender words of love will flow.
When I was 30, I sat in a counselor’s office. My mother had just died. Unbelievably just nine months earlier, my husband’s mother also died. We were so young with two young children who would not know any grandmas. My counselor, on my first visit, asked me why I was there. I told him that I just couldn’t lose one more person. I asked him to promise me (on behalf of God) that I wouldn’t face any more impending tragedies. Wisely, he looked at me and said, “The issue is not whether I can promise you a life without more pain. The issue is this ~ When the next thing happens, will you know Jesus in a way where He is enough?” That question registered deeply in my soul and set the course for the rest of my life.
With the events of this summer and the loss of our son, I can tell you that God has been enough. More than enough. No matter how desperate our need has been, and still is, He is deeper still. The faith that we have needed to believe God for strength, comfort, and redemption has been granted to us one moment at a time. We cling to His promises and they are sustaining us even when we can’t see our way ahead yet. The scriptures we have known and thought we have understood have taken on new dimensions and each one meets us where we hurt.
Many have asked me if I am angry with God. I don’t understand the question. What happened is not His fault. Our son made a choice and God has been there to pick up the pieces of our hearts. We are swimming in the ocean of His love even though grieving. Living water carries our tears and our praises.
Father, You are still the beautiful answer to every cry of my heart. Amen