FAITH AND DISTRUST
No distrust made him waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised. Romans 4:20-21
It’s impossible to have faith in God if distrust is part of my heart’s makeup. Satan knows that and introduces pain and betrayal into my story. I close off my heart, live in fear and never fully trust people again. With that in place, the enemy knows what will be next; a distrust of God.
Paul reveals something so deep in today’s scripture. Abraham would not allow any distrust to make him waver concerning God’s promises. What were the areas of distrust he could have wallowed in? His age and ability to father a child. Sarah’s old womb. Ridicule from those around him. Abram’s name meant ‘father of many’. He was, at that time, father of none. God renamed him “Abraham” which meant ‘father of a multitude.’ Is this the promise of a twisted God? A cynical man could have laughed and refused to own the name. Instead, Abram announced his new name and probably sustained many more jokes. “Father of a nation? You don’t have even one child.” When Isaac was born, the jokes probably continued. “Father of a nation? You only have one child by Sarah.”
Abraham made a choice to believe God. So must I. The more pain I have suffered in my life, especially as a child, the more difficult it will be to trust Him. I must push through all the internal objections to the perceived feasibility of God’s faithfulness to His promises! What God has promised will always be ludicrous to me; always too good to be true.
Faith begins with a choice to believe. It is fed by the Word penetrating my heart and exposing distrust. It grows by giving glory to God and praising God for who He is and what He has promised to do. At every fork in the road, one way marked “Disbelief” and the other marked “Belief”, I choose the one that believes God. Then I feed myself the spiritual food necessary to stay on the hard path one more day.
For all of you whose faith walk is tenuous, I am praying for you.
Thank you for the stories of faith. Abraham is my brother in Christ and his choices give me strength today. I believe You even though it feels oh so risky. Amen